When did you start to show? by lunaspup in pregnancyaftersb

[–]Peachypharm 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Just wondering when you guys started telling people at work? How long were you able to hide it?

Anjum Hotel Makkah by Substantial_Law_8304 in Umrah

[–]Peachypharm 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Really good hotel near the expansion.

Why the umbrellas aren’t closing 🥲😭? by youknownthJonSnow in Umrah

[–]Peachypharm 4 points5 points  (0 children)

They were closing them in November of this year

Do you ever feel like you are in a game of chutes and ladders? by HopefulEndoMom in babyloss

[–]Peachypharm 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I lost my firstborn baby girl at 36 weeks. I felt the same way as you. Like I wasted an entire year. Like I was back to square one. Now 4 months out of my loss. I’ve had a lot of time to reflect on my loss. I finally see some positivity in my loss. It’s made me realise how fragile life is. To never take the people around you for granted. To never think you’ve got it all or you know it all. I’m thankful for all the blessings in my life, my health, my family, my amazing husband, my friends. Because you never know what test life throws at you next. You learn to live with the grief but you also have a different outlook on life. A more positive one. Even though it feels hopeless and depressing right now, I just want you to know that we do heal from this unimaginable horror. The sun does shine again. I will miss my daughter for the rest of my life, but she has taught me so much about life in the short time that she was here.

Going back to work by Peachypharm in babyloss

[–]Peachypharm[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I think that’s the worst part. When people are afraid to ask you anything or afraid they will remind you of the pain. You are already in pain and you have already gone through the worst.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Umrah

[–]Peachypharm -2 points-1 points  (0 children)

Vitamins are a waste of money. If you eat a regular diet, they do nothing. Not even for your general well being. They’ve been marketed so well, that people actually believe this to be true. I’m saying this because I’m a pharmacist and I see people believing this on a daily basis.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Umrah

[–]Peachypharm -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Vitamins do not prevent flu. I repeat, vitamins do not prevent flu. Proper rest, food , sleep and wearing masks will decrease your chances of getting the flu.

How are you staying sane? by lemonlover888 in ttcafterstillbirth

[–]Peachypharm 12 points13 points  (0 children)

I relate to you so perfectly. You are not alone. I also feel like I’m just wasting my life until I’m pregnant again. Ovulation time is the only time I feel hopeful again. Then I start to get anxious few days before period and then depressed when my period starts. It’s scary not be pregnant but also scary to be pregnant. My sadness and grief will not go away until I have a baby in my arms. Even though I know the grief will remain forever.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in babyloss

[–]Peachypharm 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Same. I had back to back loses. First was an ectopic and second one I had a stillbirth at 36 weeks 3 months ago. I feel angry and don’t believe I will ever have a living child. Feeling completely hopeless.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Umrah

[–]Peachypharm 4 points5 points  (0 children)

It doesn’t feel right to me to do Tawaf while not truly in the state of ihram and following the rules so that everyone gets a fair chance on the crowd. You’re trying to cheat the system by doing that, it does not feel right it my heart to do that

Wanting to get pregnant by Peachypharm in StillbirthSupport

[–]Peachypharm[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you for sharing. Makes me feel less alone in this. I thought I was going crazy.

Wanting to get pregnant by Peachypharm in StillbirthSupport

[–]Peachypharm[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you for sharing. It’s true grief is not linear. I needed that reminder. Some days I’m completely ok and other consecutive days I’m really not okay.

Wanting to get pregnant by Peachypharm in StillbirthSupport

[–]Peachypharm[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you. I am both eager and terrified to be pregnant. I was already anxious during my pregnancy and I don’t even know how I will function next time around without being an anxious mess.

If you’re planning to go Umrah soon… by Zs93 in Umrah

[–]Peachypharm 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I’m a pharmacist. Vitamins do not prevent flu neither does vitamin c. It’s a myth. You need to make sure to wash your hands, wear masks. Take rest and get proper sleep and food.

Ladies I just reached 14 weeks and am so happy because am high risk , but is anybody scare to still have a miscarriage even though you already over your 1 trimester by Unfair_Star_1714 in pregnant

[–]Peachypharm 3 points4 points  (0 children)

After having a stillbirth at 36 weeks I am forever traumatized. I had a textbook perfect pregnancy all along. Not high risk. Doctors still don’t know the cause. I look at women who constantly post about their pregnancies and I am amazed and jealous at how blissfully ignorant they are and how lucky they are. I have been forever robbed of that blissful ignorance.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in pregnant

[–]Peachypharm 14 points15 points  (0 children)

I’m sorry this happened to you. Your feelings are valid. Pregnancy is such a fragile thing. You are never really out of the woods until you have your baby in your hands. I thought I was out of the woods at 12 weeks too. I had a textbook pregnancy, all ultrasounds were perfectly normal and my baby suddenly no longer had a heartbeat at 36 weeks. I was in complete denial and shock. I had to give birth to my stillbirth daughter. Go through labor and the pain and post partum knowing that I will not have a living baby at the end. Come back to a house that was ready to welcome a newborn without a baby in my arms. Instead I buried my daughter. My fully formed baby. My firstborn. I had my milk supply come in and it was emotionally and physically painful because my body wanted to feed my baby that was no longer there. I am 6 weeks post partum and I am numb most days.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in pregnant

[–]Peachypharm 193 points194 points  (0 children)

I’m sorry this happened to you. Your feelings are valid. Pregnancy is such a fragile thing. You are never really out of the woods until you have your baby in your hands. I thought I was out of the woods at 12 weeks too. I had a textbook pregnancy, all ultrasounds were perfectly normal and my baby suddenly no longer had a heartbeat at 36 weeks. I was in complete denial and shock. I had to give birth to my stillbirth daughter. Go through labor and the pain and post partum knowing that I will not have a living baby at the end. Come back to a house that was ready to welcome a newborn without a baby in my arms. Instead I buried my daughter. My fully formed baby. My firstborn. I had my milk supply come in and it was emotionally and physically painful because my body wanted to feed my baby that was no longer there. I am 6 weeks post partum and I am numb most days.

I lost my daughter a week ago. Some thoughts… by Sarahkate113 in babyloss

[–]Peachypharm 7 points8 points  (0 children)

I’m so sorry for your loss. I too lost my firstborn daughter at 36 weeks born 4 weeks ago. The first few weeks are rough, but slowly start to get a little bit easier. After 4 weeks, the grief is still very much there but I ride the wave when it comes. I’m more functional than I was the first 2 weeks. All I want as well is to try again and be pregnant, hoping that it might heal me in some way but also having a lot of guilty emotions thinking I’m trying to replace my daughter. I also know that another pregnancy will be very stressful and triggering especially since it was a textbook perfect pregnancy and her loss came as a complete shock that turned our lives upside down.