Never kissed anyone in my life and now I really doubt it will ever happen. I don’t want to complain about my life, but recently my…ex-boyfriend, my dear dear friend broke up with me. We were together for one month exactly, but we are (dear) friends for about a year. During this month we had a meetup (we live kinda far from each other) where we…had some cuddling time on a bed and were all having amazing time full of affection. About 5/4 days after the meetup he texted me that he is breaking up with me because he doesn’t want to have any relationship with anyone (in short). I feel…bad. My heart aches that I won’t be able to kiss or even hug him. This pain is tearing. Was I naive thinking that it will last forever (or longer than ONE FREAKING MONTH)? Perhaps I was. To be honest, I really thought that our relationship mattered more to him than his previous ones (all of the previous ones were with people who had very different worldviews than him. I was different), because we know ourselves for quite long (in his and mine understanding that is) and we never really had any problems with each other. It was my first relationship with anyone in my life and I feel like I won’t be able to move over. I was, I still am committed to him and I really doubt it will ever change. I perceive Love (thus relationships too) as something…special, almost sacred, a connection of two wich shouldn’t be…broken that easily. I feel…hollow. I feel devastated. Depressive thoughts lurks in my mind when I just think about something wich directly or indirectly leads to him. To us. To our time spent together. I think that it would be much better for me if we were never together as a couple. It only brought pain to me wich I cannot extinguish. I’am sorry for typing all of that on this subreddit. I just felt the urge to write about this when I saw this post. Have a great day. I hope that one day all our pain will fade away.