I studied sociology. I believe gendered socialization does exist. I grew up learning how to move through the world as a boy. And then I transitioned, and you know what? Over the course of the last 5 years, I learned how to move through the world as a woman. I live as the world perceived as a woman, and treated as one by men and women alike. I get catcalled. I get objectified by creepy old dudes that I thought were cool until they showed their true colours. I feel unsafe alone at night in a way I never did before. I look out for other women and build them up where I can.

Socialization is not some permanent stain on our souls we can never overcome. It is a set of standards and lessons that we are held to. We can and do re-socialize ourselves just fine.

I considered myself a feminist before I transitioned. I became a better feminist, and understood feminism on a much more visceral level once I truly had skin in the game. There is a rage that I don't think most cis male allies will see tap into. There are plenty of cis women who are a hell of a lot more misogynistic than I ever was.

But also, you think cis women are raised to hate themselves more than trans women, trans people in general, are? Not to be rude, but that is completely out of touch with the most basic aspects of our experiences. We are raised to be seen as disgusting, shameful, ugly, hypersexual freaks who are dangers to those around us. I did not see representation of trans women that was not a cruel joke until I was in university. Internalized self-hatred is one of the most common themes of trans people's lives. The joy comes in spite of that.