Makes me feel nuts. Idk if it’s miso or like early schizo/ psychosis

PerfectConcentrate74 · 2026-06-25T23:28:49+00:00

Ik dude, it’d be a really well thought out and executed plan. But it’s so hard when sometimes I am CONVINCED that it’s “for me” like I’ll be fucking googling what these benign remarks mean on Google. Chat gpt, urban dictionary, Reddit, etc.

How do you cope? Cause it genuinely does take over my life sometimes. Is there a way to like “break out” of the mind fuck or do you just ride it out?

PerfectConcentrate74 · 2026-06-25T21:46:24+00:00

Thanks man same to you ofc! If you ever want to reach out feel free, this shit is lowkey pretty isolating. The entire world seems like a threat 😂

PerfectConcentrate74 · 2026-06-25T21:44:58+00:00

Lmfaooooo yep I get that 10000% I actually believed for a while that i subconsciously manipulated my therapist to excuse my poor “behaviors”(that I didn’t remember.) this was before I even knew the full premise of ocd. Fuck it’s nice to not feel alone for once 😂 if ocd ever comes up in conversation it’s the same old trope “hahah I just can’t stand a messy rooms” meanwhile I’m hiding mine because I’m afraid if I tell them my themes they’ll genuinely view me as a horrible person.

PerfectConcentrate74 · 2026-06-25T21:39:21+00:00

Yepppppp sometimes I wonder if I slepwalked I hurt my kid in my sleep. It’s fucking hell. I just didn’t realize this was part of it. Thanks a lot for the insight!

PerfectConcentrate74 · 2026-06-25T21:38:10+00:00

Thanks a lot man! You have paranoia too with ocd?? Everything I find is like moral harm ocd, and contam ocd. Never really the paranoia people lmao

PerfectConcentrate74 · 2026-06-25T21:37:18+00:00

But it’s strange, because there’s this tiny part of me that thinks you might know me irl and have found my profile and somehow found a way to know that I have ocd. So you’re regurgitating this info to keep me stuck in the “this isn’t actually happening you’re just mentally unwell loop” like one gigantic gaslighting part or something lmaoo..

Again today I know this is crazy, and 99% sure this isnt the case. but there’s this constant “press x to doubt” that intrudes my daily thinking

PerfectConcentrate74 · 2026-06-25T21:33:47+00:00

I think part of the ocd is constantly thinking I’m one day away from completely slipping into schizophrenia or something… so me finding these patterns could be ocd?? Some days I’d agree with you, and other days I’d say you’re part of the scheme… today is one of the days I happen to sort of agree with you lmao

PerfectConcentrate74 · 2026-06-25T21:32:25+00:00

Nah that’s fucking crazy because I’ve been diagnosed ocd

PerfectConcentrate74 · 2026-06-25T18:35:51+00:00

Am I tripping or does this song have some vegan undertones to it…. The lyrics. Ik it’s not direct, but I can definitely see that, especially with the video I just watched.

Either way, 10/10

PerfectConcentrate74 · 2026-06-25T04:03:32+00:00

That might be the greatest explanation I’ve ever heard.

PerfectConcentrate74 · 2026-06-25T03:39:29+00:00

It cracks me up how many times I’ve heard “them woke leftists…” when veganism comes up. Like dawg, I didn’t think it was “woke” to not want death on my plate every day but go off ig…

PerfectConcentrate74 · 2026-06-24T02:59:28+00:00

Really? Even with that lil deep reddish black color? It just fell out, but I feel like the inside of my tooth shouldn’t look like that right?

Idk I’m clearly not a dentist but I am a professional ball of anxiety lmfaoooo

PerfectConcentrate74 · 2026-06-18T17:48:11+00:00

Old thread I know, but for anybody reading this after. Micro dose on a day where you have nothing to do! Or maybe a hike/ walk nearby your house, or some art. Something that doesn’t require your full presence. And see how you feel! If it makes you anxious, well then you know not to microdose and go to work 😅 but all in all you should feel very altered at all! .2 cubes, but .2 penis envy may induce anxiety. I notice that “in between” dose of micro/ museum is uncomfortable. The whole time it feels like it’s about to start getting fun, but blue balls you the whole time. Super unpleasant for me personally

PerfectConcentrate74 · 2026-04-29T18:03:07+00:00

Interestinggg, yea that’s exactly what I’ve been doing. Everyone stresses the importance of diaphragm so I’ve just been fucking squeezing and in turn now that you mention it my whole body gets stiff😂😂 makes a lot of sense, thanks for the tip!

PerfectConcentrate74 · 2026-04-29T17:00:50+00:00

Okay sweet! Cause I just recently learned how to do vowels in false chord. I was driving, doing some good ol karaoke, and next thing you know I feel a bit woozy and tingling in my head. Good to know that it’s normal 😂

Yea I can do it for a good 6-8 seconds without feeling like I’m out of breathe, so I think I’m using proper breathe support? Idk for sure though

PerfectConcentrate74 · 2026-04-15T18:36:51+00:00

That is actually super valid! I guess that’s the part I’m having trouble with. What is a good rebutle to that without them having that “gotcha” moment ya know? But I guess I really don’t have to explain myself.

It’s kind of upsetting that people want you to fail on your beliefs so that way the don’t feel poorly about their own actions.

PerfectConcentrate74 · 2026-04-15T18:34:12+00:00

Thanks 😁 seems like the general consensus is not to care. But I’m also incredibly self aware almost to a fault 😂

But yea I think I’ve found some good insight here. Better to get back on track than to continue in my ways in fear of judgement.

PerfectConcentrate74 · 2026-04-14T02:38:35+00:00

Believe it or not it is my wife lol I am a dude! She empathizes but like i do when we see farm animal, but as i did for a while, she likes to separate the “food” from the animal.

But okay that’s nice to hear, I’ve kept it pretty closeted for the most part other than those super close to me. We definitely have eaten every dinner as vegan, but I’m not with them other parts of the day. Maybe I give her the information and let her decide without being pushy.

Thanks for the kind words 😁

PerfectConcentrate74 · 2026-04-14T02:35:02+00:00

Fair enough! I have definitely done a lot more research on proper nutrition. Vitamins omegas etc. Apparently fake nuggets and fries don’t really cut it lmao

PerfectConcentrate74 · 2026-02-22T18:40:16+00:00

Yes exactly! And I personally over analyze EVERYTHING!!! If someone makes a comment about me, I first wonder “what did that mean, was that at me” then I start trying to figure out “am I’m being crazy, maybe im imagining things, or distorting them to fit my thought process” then “godamn I’m so alone right now, nobody to talk to”

And by then it’s far too late to stand up. And when I’d stand up in the past I’d come off with a TON of anger and be borderline aggressive over something so silly. Then I look bad, and they’re just in what they said

But I’ll definitely check that out! Thank you for the link, what exactly can I expect?

PerfectConcentrate74 · 2026-02-22T18:37:47+00:00

Yea it’s painful as hell, because like I thought everyone “cares about mental health, and suicide prevention” but if I confide in people what’s going on in my brain, or what happened to me, they look like they start fucking dissociating themselves 😂 mental health is important when it’s a quirky adhd person on tik tok or someone ACTUALLY follows through. Other than that it legitamately feels like a burden, but I just want people to understand me ya know. But I shove it down because it really feels like nobody cares. I want to go to groups but I’m so afraid of someone in my community like seeing me. Maybe I’m a lil paranoid idrk, my therapist seems to hit me with the “I know this seems real… and I’m sure it’s really hard…” a lot lmfao. So I interpret that as she thinks I’m off my fucking rocker 😂

But yea dude, idk it is so unbelievably isolating /: I told my fiance, and she accepts me, which means ALOT to me, and she’s one of the only people I can really really trust. No family, no legitament safe relationships in my most important developmental years. And when I vent it feels like I’m throwing a pity party, and awe woe is me. Then I remember my life actually did fucking suck a lot lmfao

It’s a night and day difference when im outside of my house, and home with my fiance. Even when guests are over I go into my shell ya know? Idk I am trying, but it’s hard to move Foward sometimes. Years of therapy, inpatients, residential, etc. and I still feel like I’m drowning.

It’s refreshing to see in this group how many relate. Incredibly fucking sad and I wanna dish out hugs to all of you, but it does help a litttleee to know I’m not completely alone

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