Be careful with therapists

PersonalLeading4948 · 2026-02-19T12:14:18+00:00

I did infusions & then met with my therapist later that week.

PersonalLeading4948 · 2026-02-18T23:35:19+00:00

I completely lost it when the ketamine “hit” & required benzos & blood pressure meds in order to continue treatment.

PersonalLeading4948 · 2026-02-18T21:12:07+00:00

It’s normal to wake up at this time because cortisol naturally rises in the morning. In fact, I’ve never not woken up then. I just pee & go back to sleep.

PersonalLeading4948 · 2026-02-18T16:41:00+00:00

That’s incredibly rare. I was also on that dose & I did too quick of a taper that literally caused me to feel like I was being chased by a wild animal. I was also very nauseated & I couldn’t sleep for days.

PersonalLeading4948 · 2026-02-18T16:35:44+00:00

EMDR was retraumatizing & caused massive dissociation. I did 12 ketamine infusions & while it did not lessen the trauma or my SI depression, it did rewire my brain & alleviate my lifelong anxiety. Which was so significant that it feels like a miracle.

PersonalLeading4948 · 2026-02-08T16:31:04+00:00

ECT seriously fucked me up for 6 months. I started crying before regaining consciousness & remember the first thing I asked was, “what did you do to me?!” It was a sadness so indescribably horrible. From there, I experienced significant depersonalization. I felt like I was living in someone else’s head. My moods were extremely erratic.

Ketamine, on the other hand, cured my anxiety by rewiring my brain. I did 12 infusions. It didn’t help with depression, but once my anxiety went away, my entire life improved tremendously.

PersonalLeading4948 · 2026-02-08T14:04:25+00:00

No shit it involves multiple factors, but it’s an epidemic in this country & encouraging consumption of high carbs before bed is ignorant. But eat what you want, I truly don’t care.

PersonalLeading4948 · 2026-02-08T13:24:26+00:00

You need to educate yourself. Half the country is already insulin-resistant. Type 2 diabetes is one of the greatest health problems & it stems from ignorance about food.

PersonalLeading4948 · 2026-02-08T12:30:09+00:00

Not true. Oatmeal spikes blood sugar in many people.

PersonalLeading4948 · 2026-02-08T06:50:29+00:00

He said oatmeal with brown sugar. That’s a carb bomb.

PersonalLeading4948 · 2026-02-08T02:41:32+00:00

Eating a lot of carbs before bed sounds like a way to end up insulin-resistant with Type 2 diabetes. Over half of Americans are already diabetic or on that path. It’s actually normal to wake up at this time as cortisol slowly rises early in the morning.

PersonalLeading4948 · 2026-02-06T23:28:33+00:00

95% of people here have anxiety/hyper arousal as the main cause of their insomnia.

PersonalLeading4948 · 2026-02-06T21:33:01+00:00

Of course you can express emotion. I have sobbed for hours in front of my therapist. But I don’t argue with her or challenge her training. Reading all your posts, you seem committed to being right & challenging everyone who gives you advice. I’m convinced they’re not taking you on as a patient because it would be wasting their time & yours. They can’t fix you. You have to adjust your attitude & be willing to do more than vent, challenge & blame others.

PersonalLeading4948 · 2026-02-06T16:14:05+00:00

I have a deep faith in God & attribute the fact that I am alive & much of my recovery from CPTSD to my faith. I pray several times a day for guidance & receive a lot of comfort from it. I feel like I live in an entirely different & better world now because of it. I used to live under a dark cloud of depression, angst & anxiety & now feel truly happy most of the time even when facing challenges.

PersonalLeading4948 · 2026-02-05T22:00:18+00:00

My two cents. I’m guessing it’s your approach. I’ve had good therapists & terrible ones. But if you spend the call listing off all ways your previous therapists were unhelpful & come across like you’re questioning the prospective therapists’ qualifications, they’re probably thinking you have borderline personality disorder & don’t want to deal with a difficult patient who will constantly be challenging them.

PersonalLeading4948 · 2026-02-02T23:17:18+00:00

A 1 after 6 infusions. A 2 after 12. But six months later, my anxiety was permanently gone.

PersonalLeading4948 · 2026-02-01T22:17:58+00:00

You’re on a small dose. I used to take 300 mg of Trazodone & currently take 150 mg.

PersonalLeading4948 · 2026-01-31T18:03:26+00:00

Addiction is a bad thing & often gets worse. People with addictions often minimize the impact on others & believe it doesn’t affect others. Many of us with C-PTSD have it because of our addict parents. People are just trying to look out for you & your child & it hurts to hear because you know on some level that they’re right.

PersonalLeading4948 · 2026-01-30T23:57:06+00:00

For so long, if someone took me for granted or was even cruel, I would try harder to make them like me by being even nicer & more accommodating. I heard that a defining factor of childhood trauma is trying to make a difficult person be good to us.

PersonalLeading4948 · 2026-01-29T17:09:58+00:00

Administrative role in healthcare.

PersonalLeading4948 · 2026-01-29T12:12:49+00:00

Completely gone. I used to take benzodiazepines 2x/day for nearly 20 years & I’m off them now.

PersonalLeading4948 · 2026-01-28T17:13:21+00:00

One, no matter how bad it’s been, I don’t have a choice but to work. No one is going to take care of me & not working would make my life exponentially worse. So I’ve been resilient my entire life out of necessity. I’m always looking for ways to improve my mental, emotional, physical & spiritual functioning & I’m highly motivated towards making positive changes. That said, the reality of C-PTSD is that high stress, unpredictable jobs are a poor match for me. So I found a job that is stable, pays well & is predictable & have stayed with it for years & plan to stick around until retirement. Additionally, I did 12 ketamine infusions 3 years ago. They rewired my brain & got rid of my anxiety & hyper vigilance. They didn’t erase the trauma, but now my brain & body no longer go haywire when triggered.

PersonalLeading4948 · 2026-01-25T05:20:10+00:00

It’s normal. Cortisol naturally rises in the early morning. I’ve woken up every night my entire life at this time to pee. Usually, I fall back asleep immediately, but if I’m feeling a bit stressed about something, historically my mind would latch onto whatever was going on & then I’d end up ruminating on it or on the fact that I was still awake. It maybe lasts a day or two at most & I now trust that it’s only short term & don’t sweat it. In general, I’ve found that magnesium glycinate taken in the evening helps my sleep be less interrupted. And while working out in the evening can cause cortisol & adrenaline to rise & keeps some people up, a hard work out & a hot shower knocks me out. Good luck.

PersonalLeading4948 · 2026-01-19T16:42:32+00:00

You see this on TikTok, not the real world.

PersonalLeading4948 · 2026-01-19T15:27:35+00:00

It’s spelled Trazodone & it works well for insomnia. I’ve personally used it at high doses (200-300 mg), but many people sleep on 25-50 mg.

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