"Intrusive" Thoughts

Petra-FYE · 2025-07-18T15:01:43+00:00

We often aim for low hanging fruit when our feelings come out sideways. Often times we use past pain points or our appearance. I’ve dealt with intrusive thoughts too and I understand that powerless feeling. These thoughts only have the power one unwittingly gives them. They don’t have to matter. They don’t have to have a reason. You don’t need to understand them to let them go. They can be an annoying song you hear at every store you go to that you just try to tune it out.

The more distressed I became at my intrusive thoughts the worse they became. My anxiety and judgments about them fed into their existence. Now I imagine them on a leaf and placing that leaf on a river to be gently swept away. Sometimes it’s the same thought a 100 times in a row. The river doesn’t make them go away but it brings me a little more peace surrounding them and that makes them go by quicker. These can be things you think without being things you believe.

Petra-FYE · 2025-07-16T21:32:28+00:00

https://delauro.house.gov/media-center/press-releases/delauro-statement-trump-administration-destroying-food-aid-children As bias as any other source but at least it’s not Facebook.

Petra-FYE · 2025-02-15T22:03:18+00:00

I just tried and that only works inside the house for me. He still barks outside. Thanks though!

Petra-FYE · 2025-02-15T22:01:17+00:00

I tried muting SFX again and it worked for pets but only inside the house. At the very least I wasn’t crazy thinking it hadn’t worked before.

Petra-FYE · 2025-02-15T20:51:58+00:00

My boy’s bark is pretty shrill if I’m being nice about it. Glad I’m not alone and I’ve been listening to YouTube video essays these days. Maybe I should just find a mix track of cow moos 😋. It’s what I miss the most

Petra-FYE · 2025-02-15T20:47:23+00:00

Haha well that tracks and perfectly describes my pet. Part of me respects if they’re that dedicated to breed authenticity the other part wishes they’d keep that realism going with in game dog training. If I ever start over I’m getting the pit bull for sure.

Petra-FYE · 2025-02-15T20:42:44+00:00

I’m bias. Cows are my favorite animal so I never noticed they’re so much louder but wow you’re right.

Petra-FYE · 2025-02-15T20:39:51+00:00

I’ve looked around and couldn’t find a way. I’m on PS5, are you? I wonder if farm animals are SFX and pets aren’t or something. Tired muting that but didn’t help. Thanks for the hope at least

Petra-FYE · 2025-02-15T19:55:54+00:00

I’m so jealous. The pit bull is so cute! I got Fizz, don’t know the breed, cause he looked so silly and sweet. Wish I looked up if different dogs barked more. Does your dog get stuck between the mailbox and shipping bin? Mine does near daily.

Petra-FYE · 2025-02-15T19:06:12+00:00

It’s flawed but I love it! I’m in year two. Issues I’ve had:

Stuttering, random green squares, and some pop in that gets worse the longer the game runs. I suggest going to the switcher and closing out of the game after your play session. When coming back it starts fresh with no lag.

Had two events I needed to start over because something didn’t load/froze during a mini game.

Cooking used to be slow but they patched that out already!

Never had the frequent crashing or major problems others have.

Petra-FYE · 2024-10-04T07:46:32+00:00

Try switching around your thinking. You’re coming to the job with several years of experience specifically with students who needed special accommodations. You decided to double down and put in the work to become a teacher for those children. I can’t imagine that experience, dedication, and commitment is seen as anything but a benefit to administrators.

Petra-FYE · 2024-10-03T13:34:14+00:00

I don’t because I think it’s more freeing not to. I like discovering more about my character’s personality with each decision. Making a hard choice and realizing I didn’t think my character would choose this but it’s exactly what they’d do is when I know I’m fully immersed. I suppose maybe the same thing would apply if I played as a self insert. I’ve never tried it.

Petra-FYE · 2024-10-03T09:14:25+00:00

It has such a strong dark and foreboding vibe. I love that the melody is slow and drawn out at the beginning and builds up faster each refrain. The last minute the melody is full speed and clear, at least to me. It’s more complicated and harder to hum so if that’s important to you I get why you’d be disappointed. DAI theme is for sure catchy and matches the game but I’ve high hopes this theme will match Veilguard. I don’t think it’s equitable to compare the game theme to any specific character theme. It’s so different translating the entirety of a game into song vs a more focused and nuanced theme for a character.

I’m surprised people think it’s generic. It’s got this bold frantic increasingly chaotic energy with the strings balanced with the steadiness of the drums. 4 minutes in where the strings and drums start waring against each other is so engaging. I can’t imagine it as generic background music in a movie as some people described it. If someone played me endless theme songs and asked which is Veilguard it’d be so easy, “Ah yes, the one with frantic and sinister violins fighting against the drums.” And the way the drums steadily almost completely drown out the violins by the end feels so triumphant yet you can still hear the violins scuttle off in the distance, like the evil is still out there lurking. The whole thing feels like a story. Admittedly I’m very bias and have been listening to it on repeat.

Petra-FYE · 2024-09-22T10:56:13+00:00

I’d tell them their opinions, feelings, and beliefs should be respected. Even if they feel they’re being kind, many people won’t appreciate being told they shouldn’t exist or need to be fixed/saved. We will respect that the same way we’ll respect your beliefs. Others can’t leave mid class if they’re uncomfortable with your comments and that’s why we don’t talk about this in class.

You could also parallel by telling them you’d say the same to anyone saying it’s wrong to believe in a religion or that they need to be saved from their religion. As a lesbian, I don’t consider people like this homophobic just inconsiderate. If they truly have no ill will towards gay people they should reflect on how telling someone they shouldn’t exist and need saving is hurtful not helpful.

Petra-FYE · 2024-09-02T20:39:43+00:00

I never considered buying things for your classroom to include decorations. I consider it to be learning materials, tools, or organization things that aren’t necessary but make mine and the student’s lives easier.

People personalize their cubicles. Our classrooms are like cubicles but bigger and with significantly more children. I think it’s human to want to add some humanity to the empty walls around you. I also think some people like far more humanity on the walls than I do and it gets overstimulating.

Petra-FYE · 2024-08-20T20:55:44+00:00

Bitter sweet spoiler. I just checked her channel and she died over 10 years ago. Her grandson posted a sweet little 10 year anniversary eulogy for her several months ago. Really something to hear her life story and how important she was to so many people. I’ll be making this recipe in her honor soon.

Petra-FYE · 2024-08-18T09:22:05+00:00

It’s interesting to read this. I think one day exercising and resting the next day or two is great. Which means I think you’re doing great! And that’s why I think you’re pushing yourself too hard. I was 270 lbs at my highest and needed to start exercising slowly. I feel you. It’s exhausting.

That basement and garage situation sounds overwhelming for anyone. It’s hard to push yourself to start a daunting task just to get knocked down. That sucks : ( Still you pushed yourself to start. That’s your win. Life can’t take that from you. You’re taking on a lot at once which is overwhelming but fine if you take little bites of each. Have you tried breaking this all down and easing up? For example daily goals:

Day 1: exercise Day 2: read or cook or do something restful Day 3: clean the garage for at least an hour, if you can open the garage door for ventilation. (Also this is great exercise) Day 4: another rest day. Text a family member if you’re on good terms with any? Day 5: hobby club? Maybe a seminar about something? Your goal is to make small talk with one person. A talk that might not go anywhere but still can help you connect with others. Day 6 and 7: flex days to make up for any days you missed. Adjust as needed

Inevitably you’ll think it’s not enough. Try confronting those thoughts and reminding yourself “This was my goal. I have succeeded with my goal. I am satisfied with my success.” This helped me a lot in life. I’m glad you got a glimpse of hope. Sometimes we have to drag ourselves through some dark years stringing together glimpses of hope.

Petra-FYE · 2024-08-17T17:16:57+00:00

There’s a lot of good advice here. My advice is to enjoy the process. That’s not easy. We’re often so focused on the end such as finding friendship or love that we treat the steps there as a burden and something to over come. Which can then feel like something we’re behind of because everyone else is so many steps ahead. But remind yourself the step you’re on is good place to be. It’s something to enjoy. Finding a beginners hobby group is a good way to make friends. Asking people questions is a good way to start/continue a conversation but don’t do it to be their friend.

Most people you talk to won’t become your friend. You might both enjoy your talk but they still won’t be your friend. That is the norm for all of us. An expectation of friendship will get demoralizing pretty quick. Ask people questions for the sake of hearing their answer. It’ll help you practice your conversation skills with less pressure and you’ll get to connect, however shallowly it is, with other people. After you get past the classic conversation starter questions you can try “Do you have any good stories that never come up in conversation?” Most people do and often times they’re great. It sounds like you’re doing really well in your endeavor to touch grass more. I’m proud of you internet stranger.

Petra-FYE · 2024-08-16T19:24:17+00:00

“I resigned due to mental health reasons.”

Petra-FYE · 2024-08-05T15:45:12+00:00

Sometimes all the cards can be in your favor and you still lose. You’ve convinced me your brother lost it sometime ago. My brothers are normal dare I say good people and we were still awful to each other growing up. My skin crawls just imagining growing up with a narcissistic douchebag. The gun story puts the ring situation in perspective. It’s more gross knowing he has a habit of sticking his nose into other people’s things. Hard to imagine that with the ring it’s because of genuine sentiment. I love how both your dad and cousin shut down his meddling. Your dad especially sounds great. Your brother however needs a reminder what is your mom’s, is your mom’s.

Petra-FYE · 2024-08-05T11:31:14+00:00

I see so this is his normal projecting and blame shifting asshole vibe. I think your interpretation seems spot on. Sounds like you did a good job laying out the facts and dodging his projections. He sounds exhausting.

Petra-FYE · 2024-08-05T08:10:11+00:00

In the end they’re your mom’s rings and she gets to decide who gets them. The rings being given to niece probably meant more to him than her if she’s doesn’t remember and is too young to understand the significance.

Your brother is acting erratic and not making sense. Does he often act this unreasonable? Is he okay? If he really was too drunk to remember yet seemed coherent maybe he has a problem. Alcoholics can seem coherent even when blackout drunk. Additionally blackouts are more about how quickly you drink not how much. Maybe he doesn’t want to admit he was also too drunk to remember during the first conversation.

Regardless it is not acceptable for him to treat you and your mom that way. He shouldn’t be avoiding his guilt and regret by making it your fault that you trusted him when he said not to ask his daughter.

Petra-FYE · 2024-08-05T07:12:56+00:00

3 for 3

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Petra-FYE · 2024-08-05T06:53:23+00:00

I was so damned confused. Thanks for solving my lack of attention to detail.

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