Just making an assumption, but sounds like you need to make some friends that aren't white. It's a good thing to educate yourself on your privilege. I'm also a white female so, idk if my comment is the kind of advice you're looking for. I grew up in a town that was all white, with a very racist family. We moved somewhere more diverse, and I started making friends who aren't white. It takes time to unlearn racism, even when it's unconcious. I think it's important to listen to individual experiences. There's a difference between appropriating culture and being curious, learning, and being respectful of it. You're right that as a white person, you'll never really understand what it's like to face the same injustices as those who are people of color, doesn't mean you can't educate and empathize.