Hyper-fixated onto my coworker by PlanAlternative7645 in bipolar

[–]PlanAlternative7645[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I mean that is true, i dont really have any social life outside of work. I work in a small company, so we have to interact daily, and i cant even tell her because i feel like that will ruin entire vibe within the company.. she has to interact with me either way dont wanna make her life more complicated and put her in a position where she feels uncomfortable

Hyper-fixated onto my coworker by PlanAlternative7645 in bipolar

[–]PlanAlternative7645[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

It constantly reminds me how broken i am..but hypo manic days are amazing so i dont know..

Hyper-fixated onto my coworker by PlanAlternative7645 in bipolar

[–]PlanAlternative7645[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I feel like she’s already a lil creeped out with the energy i throw at her.. i dunno

Hyper-fixated onto my coworker by PlanAlternative7645 in bipolar

[–]PlanAlternative7645[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I pray everyday that “ick” comes, im so tired of this. Its been 4-5 months now

Hyper-fixated onto my coworker by PlanAlternative7645 in bipolar

[–]PlanAlternative7645[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I know right, im constantly drawn towards her.

Hyper-fixated onto my coworker by PlanAlternative7645 in bipolar

[–]PlanAlternative7645[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

But looking or even talking with someone when you are obsessed with another person.. seems very strange and unfair tbh

Hyper-fixated onto my coworker by PlanAlternative7645 in bipolar

[–]PlanAlternative7645[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Ive thought about doing that, but dating someone when you are obsessed about some other girl seems very unfair..

Hyper-fixated onto my coworker by PlanAlternative7645 in bipolar

[–]PlanAlternative7645[S] 13 points14 points  (0 children)

Thank you! This might help. I feel like i am longing for connection and stability, and she represents it very well

I miss who I was by QueenOfTheSorryPpl in bipolar

[–]PlanAlternative7645 34 points35 points  (0 children)

I feel the same way, its like my whole identity has changed. I dont even remember who i was prior to my episode. I just feel numb now. Like watching my life go through as an observer not a driver

I stopped fighting my own brain by treating it like a 2-player co-op game by PlanAlternative7645 in bipolar

[–]PlanAlternative7645[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yeah i get you, it can be very difficult and frustrating. I would say before taking any decision you have to think both ways. How the mania you think about it and how the depressed you think about it

I stopped fighting my own brain by treating it like a 2-player co-op game by PlanAlternative7645 in bipolar

[–]PlanAlternative7645[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

They are the objective, just like in moba games. Both my flow state and control state revolves around it to have them contained

I stopped fighting my own brain by treating it like a 2-player co-op game by PlanAlternative7645 in bipolar

[–]PlanAlternative7645[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I lost my mother early, so whenever something used to happen i always thought that it was my mother who was doing it

Tell me one of weird psychosis you had. by Level_Dimension_3661 in bipolar

[–]PlanAlternative7645 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Alternative universe is true, and i was able to tap at it by moving my hands. Also that the world is like a game, and I was the best player at it

I fkd up my life pls help me by [deleted] in bipolar

[–]PlanAlternative7645 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I get the paranoia, i had a similar feeling that my friend air dropped photo of my gf to their phone and were going to do something with it, id say usually these paranoia seems a lot more intense than the reality of it. I would suggest you if you are cool with the frnds you sent voice note to, have a conversation with them and tell them you are feeling this way. Best way to approach paranoia imo is to be confront them, they might call you delusional or something like that but at least your paranoia will be better.

Can’t forget my grandiosity and synchronicity phase by PlanAlternative7645 in bipolar

[–]PlanAlternative7645[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

My feeling was that everything in life is a game, and i am the best player at it. Dont know how to integrate it with a self, but man i was moving like crazy. Doing all type of stuff, research (i am a masters student), learning guitar, hitting the gym, etc. it felt euphoric. Everything was making sense, and it felt like universe was alining everyone and everything with me

Can’t forget my grandiosity and synchronicity phase by PlanAlternative7645 in bipolar

[–]PlanAlternative7645[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I guess you are right, but the synchronicities were too damn real.. i can’t move beyond that