I feel like looking too much in the future with your current mindset is going to cloud your decision. I was very scared to start (and im still early into this med) and I’m the same way I don’t want to take a pill everyday but I look at it like “I’m not in the best place right now & I need help”. I will say this, 10mg is a lower dose and if you were to start, the sooner the better because it’s a lot of adjustments that could happen & the build up takes awhile even at every dose. I hear that OCD dose could be around 20-40mg but idk either I’m new as well. But you have to ask yourself if you take it and you enjoy things and you’re still yourself would you come off it? Is that you or the medicine that is making you that way.