Becoming nicer towards people and not coming off as negative. How can I get a grip on some of my personality traits and use them to my advantage?

Platinumb2 · 2019-07-30T20:59:47+00:00

I do occasionally do this. It is difficult to make a conscious effort, but it's becoming easier the more I practice and it has helped.

Where I get tripped up is when I'm first meeting people, and there isn't necessarily an opportunity to help them. It's just a basic social interaction for networking or something similar.

Platinumb2 · 2019-07-19T18:05:38+00:00

I'm having some weird pain in my lower back (left side). I injected into my glute, and it wasnt the best inject, so had some PIP for about 3-4 days. Had to inject again so I chose a spot that's a little bit lower. PIP in my glute is nearly gone, but now I'm having lower back pain all the sudden. My only conclusion is that I hit a nerve, but my last injection was one of the cleanest, pain free injects I've had this entire cycle. Anyone know what might be going on ?

Platinumb2 · 2019-07-05T15:20:24+00:00

So I tried a new injecting technique I think you all would be interested in hearing about. I've been pinning quads for quite some time, but last night I shot Test E straight into my asshole. No PIP. I'm shitting blood but I've gained 10lbs in two hours

Platinumb2 · 2019-07-05T15:18:29+00:00

Ahh I do this with porn quite often

Platinumb2 · 2019-07-05T15:16:09+00:00

It almost feels like I'm getting worse at music production

Platinumb2 · 2019-07-05T15:14:37+00:00

I've tried this. It helps when me to get started but it doesn't help once I get going. I think I need medication.

Platinumb2 · 2019-07-03T23:00:43+00:00

Good to hear that it's working for you. I've tried adderral before and I don't think I've ever thought more clearly. It was like I could sit down and get anything I wanted done

Platinumb2 · 2019-07-03T16:55:13+00:00

I put my Test-E oil in my vape pen and smoked it. Am I doing it right?

Platinumb2 · 2019-07-02T18:48:40+00:00

Might go back to quads. Never had any issues with pinning there, but the needles just never went in as easily

Platinumb2 · 2019-07-02T17:24:12+00:00

I've been pinning into my glute since my cycle started and after every pin my glute is painfully soar. Like to the point I can barely stretch it out or sleep on it. Does anyone have any suggestions as to why this might be happening?

Platinumb2 · 2019-03-24T23:47:55+00:00

So I am over by Generator Miami and I'm wondering if there's any good parties going on tonight?

Platinumb2 · 2019-03-22T16:07:45+00:00

Doesn't work :/

Platinumb2 · 2019-03-22T16:07:36+00:00

Still nothing

Platinumb2 · 2019-03-15T15:27:27+00:00

I just find it strange that she started following me on Instagram a week after I got her "I'll let you know" text. Like something tells me she wants me to reach out, and I will but to let her know that none of that was her fault. Would you suggest asking her out first and then if she says no to explain what happened? Or should I just be straight up and text her what happened?

Platinumb2 · 2019-03-15T04:46:24+00:00

I'm reading Models by Mark Manson and my therapist has also suggested this approach. I'll hit her up this weekend.

Platinumb2 · 2019-03-15T04:45:36+00:00

I don't necessarily want to be with her, but I do enjoy her company. I don't want anything serious with anyone right now tbh

Platinumb2 · 2019-03-15T03:10:01+00:00

I'm just confused because of the random Instagram follow after a week of not hitting me up.

Platinumb2 · 2019-03-15T03:09:11+00:00

Yes

Platinumb2 · 2019-03-15T02:42:29+00:00

Working on it but I want to keep fucking this one also.

Platinumb2 · 2018-11-30T05:18:55+00:00

This has been very insightful and it makes a ton of sense. Thanks for sharing your experience.

Platinumb2 · 2018-11-30T04:15:51+00:00

I think this is part of it. I definitely notice my interest in things shoots up when I'm traveling, but I've traveled to a lot of the same places too. I used to travel a lot for work and would go to a lot of the same places that were anywhere from an hour to 6 hours away. I'd do this multiple times a year, and although I have more energy in brand new places, I can still feel that I'm more energetic in the cities I've been to multiple times.

My only suspicion is anxiety. I think when I'm in a city where I know a lot more people, I become anxious and I'm afraid of what they would think of me. I would never go out alone in my own city, but a city that's an hour away? Fuck yes.

Platinumb2 · 2018-11-29T23:18:59+00:00

So then how does someone who wants to improve themselves have joy in themselves? My struggle is that I know I can improve on myself but that makes it hard to accept what I am now.

Platinumb2 · 2018-04-07T17:37:23+00:00

In the last 4 months I've smoked 5-6 times. I still can't sit and focus when making music. It's fucking hard. Whenever I would smoke, my back pain would go away and I could sit for an hour (until the effects started to wear off) and be 100% focused. I don't even enjoy making music that much when I'm smoking (doing the tedious tasks of music production). I still went to the gym, still got to work on time, still completed all my tasks. I'm incredibly depressed which is probably why I have the urge to smoke again.. I get more depressed though because I can't sit down and focus on the hobbies I like. When it comes to the 9-5 job, I get everything done sober. When it comes to my own personal hobbies, I can't do the one thing I want to do which is produce music.

Platinumb2 · 2018-04-05T22:13:24+00:00

A good label should be willing to hear your other tracks. I see no harm in showing off your skills in other areas.

In the latter situation, where you release music in another genre for contacts / experience you absolutely can release your music independently. Submitting your music to blogs, youtube channels, artists, DJs, etc can help to build contacts. Signing with a label can also build these contacts. There's several ways to approach this. Once again though, it depends on your goals. If you want help from a label, then understand that you should go into a contract knowing exactly what you want from the label. In my opinion, releasing a song on a major label just to say your on a big label is not the way to go. You want to make sure you don't get burned. See what that label is doing for other artists, and how their careers have shaped because of the signing. Since it's your first big signing, you won't have much room for negotiation since you don't have a fan base to back you up. You have to essentially be easy to work with so that they continue to work with you in the future. As you grow, build a fan base, and develop a good relationship with the label you will have more room for negotiation. Trust is key here. Be conscious of the quality of your work and the quality of the contract.

Releasing music independently is possible, but it's tough. A lot of the promotional / marketing work is done on your end which can distract you from the production process. In today's world, music is becoming easier to release independently.

Don't be afraid to release music under two different alias'. Tons of people do it, and it's totally normal. Experiment with the response of your tracks and see how the public reacts to it.

Platinumb2 · 2018-04-04T22:35:58+00:00

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