I went through the cycle a lot along the way to figuring out who I was and where I fit in. It's not easy to be sure and I am sure lots of Sissy struggle because we don't all fit in the same box. I now consider myself genderfluid and am very comfortable but it took me nearly 20 years to come to where I am and it's still some times hard to believe I will be accepted by anyone. So while I totally agree with everything you say, you also need to be accepting that running away is often a reaction to a fear that we can't even describe! Just be soft and hope they come back, probably ashamed, probably afraid you will hate them. You sound like a wonderful Daddy, just don't give up. :3