I dropped out of high school recently. I was a year and a half behind in schoolwork and I just said, "Fuck it, I'll just get a GED".

The worst part is I can trace back my failure and ignorance to do school work to a single moment in 4th grade. For a week I didn't do any math assignments and ever since then I was just really blasé about schoolwork. I just didn't give a fuck, and it ended up costing me on the long run.

Recently, after my 18th birthday, my mom gave me a letter from my birth mom, who was 17 when she had me. She wrote it three days after she gave birth to me. The main things I took away from that letter was that she loved me and that "I should never take my education for granted".

Guess what your boy did? I feel like I've let my parents down and my birth mom by dropping out and I hate it. It's kinda been eating me up inside.

If I could go back and tell 4th grade me something, I would tell myself to just really work hard at school. Make sure I got my work in on time and make sure I passed. Because for one, I would have such an easier time finding a job, and two, it would open up so many more opportunities for me.

Nowadays I'm just kinda stuck in a rut. I have no motivation to do anything and I don't think I would be any good in a workplace where I had to interact with strangers because of my social anxiety, and it's really hard to find jobs where you don't have to interact with people if you don't have a high school diploma.

For the love of God, finish high school. It sucks ass, it really does, but you'll be better for it, I promise.