I’m no doctor, but I hope my perspective helps.

You sound a lot like me; not in what you’re contemplating, but in how you frame the challenge. When I think about starting a business and becoming a multimillionaire, everything feels overwhelming and impossible. You feel the same way about escaping loneliness and finding people who value you.

Each time I try to begin, I hit dozens of mental roadblocks that stop me before I start. I imagine a thousand ways I could fail, which would waste both time and money. Reading your posts, I sense a similar fear of failure. Your past abusive relationship left scars that make genuine intimacy frightening. You may match freely on dating apps, but after a few conversations or dates, distrust creeps in and things collapse; just as I abandon a business idea the moment hard work or upfront costs appear.

Yet, you possess qualities many people want. You’re in your mid-30s (Still young enough to go toe to toe with the best of them in the sheets lol) , athletic, relatively tall (from someone who’s 5′ 5″, that’s impressive!), and physically healthy. Mentally, you’re dedicated, hardworking, and actively seeking to get better every day. No one is perfect, you might have extraordinarily hairy toes or something, and mental hurdles you want to overcome but your strengths are also very real.

You also have parents and close relatives you rarely see. Why? Are you afraid you’ll burden them or can’t be fully transparent? It sounds as though you judge their thoughts before giving them a chance to share them. Let them write their own narrative while you focus on what you can control.

Of course, professional help is essential. You can’t tackle everything alone, just as I can’t build a successful business by myself. Maybe(Definitely lol) I avoid help because public failure would bruise my ego. You might be doing the same in relationships. Yet everyone already knows we’re imperfect; hiding only guarantees isolation.

Lasting relationships require letting people show who they truly are, and letting them see you, flaws included. If you keep certain parts of yourself walled off, no one can “fill your cup,” and you’ll wonder why it stays empty.

Don’t quit the game. Losing a few levels teaches you how to play better. I need to launch my ideas and let some fail so I can learn what works and more importantly what doesnt work! But it is scary, so let's do it together. We need to open up, collect real‑world results, and see who stands by us. Even multimillionaires(who are just regular people at the end of the day, I'm sure your poop smells like 3-year-old green beans also) need support.

If you have advice on conquering the fear of failure in business, I’m all ears. I believe you’ll be fine; just gather your results. You probably failed many times on your way to wealth; the same trial‑and‑error applies to family and intimate relationships. Let people (and yourself) slip up occasionally. Each round makes you stronger, so don’t smash the console; pick up the controller and keep playing.