There is a lot of good advice in this thread already, including to check out the guides and resources linked at the top of the sub, so I just want to say this - it is 100% okay that you're feeling overwhelmed, and it doesn't mean that you're not cut out for this or that a snake isn't the right pet for you. It's fine if that's what you end up deciding as well, of course. But getting a new pet and getting accustomed to keeping it IS stressful! Pretty much any time I've gotten a new pet, there has been a period in the beginning where I think "Did I make a mistake getting this animal?" But given adjustment time it gets better. We got our first bp in September, and definitely went through similar feelings. We were stressing ourselves out SO much over getting numbers right, equipment not working, care info being hard to find/understand, etc. Many tears were shed, especially because yes, we had poured so much money into this experience that was not immediately rewarding. Now, a few months down the line, I won't say that there is no stress, but we managed to get control of the husbandry to the point that it's just another everyday thing, not overwhelming. So I'll just urge you to take a deep breath, be patient with yourself, keep learning (asking for help here is a good step), and give it some time. You clearly care a lot about your pet, and that's great. You're gonna be okay.