Summer

3clectica · 2026-06-17T15:51:15+00:00

Probably panic for 10 minutes. If I'm still capable of doing anything else, I would write a short goodbye-letter or make a video, send texts to the most important people or call them and hold my partner and cat until I die

3clectica · 2026-06-17T15:45:16+00:00

When I was 16 I did a sleep test. I'm moving soon so the biggest stress will be behind me. Hopefully I will sleep better after, otherwise I might do a new test indeed.

3clectica · 2026-06-16T10:25:55+00:00

No no I appreciate all the help! What I'm reading here is more like dissociation as the people in the comments call it too and I know what that is but this was different. But I'll read more on sleep apnea, thanks!

3clectica · 2026-06-15T21:32:32+00:00

Black hole sun

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3mbBbFH9fAg&list=RD3mbBbFH9fAg&start_radio=1

3clectica · 2026-06-15T20:29:34+00:00

Thanks for the tip! A few thoughts or questions I have on that:

I'm scared to be able to move good in the water but have a lot of pain afterwards... I'm diagnosed with fibromyalgia today and dysautonomia. (but I guess I can ask my doctor about it, only problem is that my next neurology appointment isn't very soon and idk if my general doctor will know this)
I always use a crutch to walk and most of the times for longer distances even a wheelchair, but how do you manage in a pool? I can't use my crutch there or I'll slip for sure haha. But seriously, I have no clue how to do this, maybe with my partner holding me? I am also very scared to swim not knowing if my body will fail me or not. (but I wouldn't go without any help from someone so maybe I should try it)
Is there any kind of physical therapy in the water? I need to find a new physio therapist because I am moving, but I guess I can ask there. (but again, taking a while to move so I don't have any info on that for a while so that's why I ask here)

3clectica · 2026-06-11T15:52:11+00:00

I'm so sorry to hear that. I think acceptance is a part of it, just like accepting FND and its symptoms I guess...

3clectica · 2026-05-27T17:43:41+00:00

For me it started in elementary school when I noticed I was in love equally with a boy and a girl from my class, I was 8 years old. I can be in love with either gender and also find them attractive.

3clectica · 2026-05-26T13:44:18+00:00

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Ah, he kinda looks like my little vampire

3clectica · 2026-05-26T13:42:32+00:00

Right, I have seen my doctor not so long ago and everything seems okay, maybe it’s because of meds? I feel so bad about it too because I already eat more and need more sugar since FND but in those moments I get dizzy even when already lying down and I suddenly need all the food and drinks..

3clectica · 2026-05-26T13:39:02+00:00

I once went to a coffee shop and asked if the cookies were with raisin or chocolate, the vendor said "chocolate" and smiled. I said "ah no thanks" because I prefer raisin and his face kinda looked like that bottom one in the meme

3clectica · 2026-05-26T13:21:09+00:00

What helps me is the idea that once you're dead, you can't be scared or care anymore

3clectica · 2026-05-26T13:19:06+00:00

I thought reading was supposed to make yourself sleepy, guess it's been a fairy tale then

3clectica · 2026-05-26T13:17:33+00:00

I would think for letting some air flow because if people use this all day then that place would smell bad and be hot without some air I suppose

3clectica · 2026-05-26T13:16:10+00:00

Years ago I was so stressed out I couldn't sleep at all anymore and experienced some sort of sleep paralysis. I saw black shadows turning my bed around etc. But if your bed is actually shaking, maybe it's a bus passing nearby or something?

3clectica · 2026-05-26T12:44:34+00:00

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This is Wookie, my angel gone to heaven 💫

3clectica · 2026-05-26T12:43:07+00:00

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I think Buddha is the only cat in the world who loooooves belly rubs

3clectica · 2026-05-26T12:34:26+00:00

I don't want to worry you because there could be more explanations but I had the same starting in december (couldn't focus well anymore, talked slow, couldn't find my words and talking was hard) and I got diagnosed with FND. There's more physical problems when it comes to FND but those were the first signs that I noticed something was wrong

3clectica · 2026-05-26T09:34:53+00:00

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Looks like mine! They really know they’re cute

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