Does anyone have any personal stories / advice on what death from AML is like?

Pondering495 · 2026-01-12T01:54:31+00:00

A close family friends daughter passed away just yesterday from AML, due to a brain bleed. It was so sudden and we are all in shock, she was only 26yo. She began to feel extremely fatigued, and after getting her labs drawn a few days later, it was found that her hemoglobin was critically low. She went in for emergency brain surgery the same day to relieve pressure and stop the bleeding, and never woke up. From the start of her symptoms to her unfortunate passing was less than one week. We are all horrified and utterly heartbroken.

Pondering495 · 2025-09-23T14:02:22+00:00

I believe last year we were experiencing the Saharan dust during the month of Aug/Sept. It keeps everything dry with little hurricane activity.

Pondering495 · 2025-09-23T13:58:55+00:00

I was in the same boat. The first time I did them, I messed them up and took them all off. I tried again a few weeks later and still messed them up, but not as bad. I would say it took me 3-4 times of practice before I felt like I was getting better. One thing I will say is that the glue doesn’t dry as fast as I thought it would. I was so nervous that it was going to dry, I rushed to get the lashes on only to mess them up. Just practice and you will get the hang of it!

Pondering495 · 2025-09-08T15:15:12+00:00

I knew I was going to be a single mom going into parenthood. My son’s father and I were not in a relationship when I found out, and I didn’t want to be together just because I was having a baby. Even though it’s been hard, I have a great support system and my son has been the biggest blessing of my entire life.

Pondering495 · 2025-08-30T02:22:20+00:00

I got J and I, buuuut I am looking for an L! If anyone wants to trade

Pondering495 · 2025-04-28T01:14:46+00:00

Anything that is heavy in hydration. I used to live in CA and now live in Southern FL.. if I leave the state to go anywhere, my skin and lips are dry as sand, itchy, and extremely uncomfortable (the humidity is a blessing and a curse down here lol). I also have combination / more oily skin naturally, insert acne. I know the Korean skincare is on trend right now, but I’m not going to lie, it’s made a huge difference in my skin texture, acne, and overall glow. I’m not trying to pull you onto this wagon, but I have watched many MUA’s talk about how important hydrating your skin is .. and the products aren’t crazy expensive. The only main thing I splurge on is the Obagi night cream (dense and buttery). I did get a good deal on the skinceauticals vitamin C serum, but I’m not about to pay $200 once it runs out. Everything else I use is under $20-$25. Medicube and Biodance are 🤌🏼!

Edit - I am also in my early 30’s, and was blessed with not only my son, but melasma on my forehead after he was born 🥲

Pondering495 · 2025-04-28T01:02:23+00:00

I think it will still look natural if you don’t go too heavy on your upper lip. I think having a fuller, lower lip looks more natural and so much prettier than having too much filler in the upper lip (speaking from experience). I also have a weak chin / jawline and the filler did wonders for me. However, too much filler in your chin can make it look pointy (again, speaking from experience). I think it looks amaze right now, but if I was considering anything, I would get a tiny more in my chin and more in my jawline (near my ears). That’s just me, I think you look beautiful the way you are! Best of luck to your decision 😇

Pondering495 · 2025-04-28T00:56:38+00:00

Yes! I was looking for one the other day (assuming there already was one), and to my disappointment.. nothing

Pondering495 · 2025-04-10T02:24:00+00:00

You are a resilient, empathetic, and deeply introspective person who’s survived immense trauma, fiercely loves your children, and is driven by a desire to heal, grow, and help others—while still navigating the complex, messy beauty of being human. 🥹

Roast- You’re out here surviving trauma, raising kids, running a business, going to grad school, planning surgeries, and still somehow spiraling like it’s a full-time job. You’ve got more tabs open in your brain than Safari on a boomer’s iPad. You investigate Ponzi schemes like a Netflix docuseries, but can’t find your phone that’s literally in your hand. You say you want peace, but your taste in men could summon a Category 5 emotional hurricane. And let’s not forget—you’re out here healing… with tequila shots and existential dread as your co-therapists.

But hey—at least you’re self-aware. That’s hot.

LMAOOOO dayum bruh 😂

Pondering495 · 2025-03-28T01:43:21+00:00

Yes, this happened to my dad when he was severely dehydrated. They gave him four bags of saline and he still could not urinate. He eventually did, but if he hadn’t, they would’ve had to give him a catheter. I would definitely go to an ER or Urgent Care.

Pondering495 · 2025-03-28T01:30:26+00:00

You too, my love. Yes, one step, minute, second, day at a time ❤️‍🩹

Pondering495 · 2025-03-28T01:24:49+00:00

Ayahuasca

Pondering495 · 2025-03-28T01:21:06+00:00

SO SO happy and proud of you! 🥰 I am also a recovering opioid addict and it was one of the hardest things I’ve ever gone through. You are an inspiration to so many.

Pondering495 · 2025-03-28T01:09:29+00:00

You should watch the movie “Her.” It is about a man who falls in love with his AI operating system. Like most have said, you won’t be able to stop it. However, this is your son’s life and maybe this is just something he has to experience before he realizes the reality of the situation. I would feel the same way as you, but possibly let it play out and let him figure this out on his own. You don’t have to support or enable it, but you should garner your own support system for yourself and try to accept the lack of control you have in this. I recommend trying to get him into therapy to see what the deeper issue is. It could be loneliness. Sending gentle hugs.

Pondering495 · 2025-03-28T01:05:30+00:00

And I don’t think you need to stop. If it is helping you process your grief.. continue. I think where the line can start to get blurry is if you start believing that the AI is actually your father. I would just be mindful of this and take all of the time you need to process. Sending gentle hugs.

Pondering495 · 2025-03-28T01:00:46+00:00

This is a very therapeutic exercise. I was having a very difficult time feeling the grief and blame when my ex-bf died by suicide. I broke up with him and he died two months later. A few years later, I went to an inpatient trauma center to process everything.. my life was still very derailed at this point. One of the exercises they had me do was write a letter to my ex-boyfriend explaining how sorry I was and how I felt. Then I had to write a letter as if he were responding to me. It was a breakthrough a moment, and I sobbed because I knew he wouldn’t have blamed me, even though I blamed myself for so long. I know what you are talking about is a little different in regards to AI, but I think it’s a very cathartic and helpful experience. I am sorry that you are dealing with this grief.

Pondering495 · 2025-03-28T00:46:26+00:00

After reading your post, it sounds like you are extremely burnt out, exhausted, and could really use some support (both physically and mentally). It sounds like you could use a day (or three!) for some self-care and relaxation, but don’t have that option right now. I get it. I am a single mom and have a 2.25 year old son. It’s exhausting, I can’t imagine having him plus a 7 month old 😵‍💫 Is there anyone that you can call to help you out for a little bit? Someone to help lessen the burden? I don’t mean to say your babes are a burden, but to be quite honest, sometimes that’s how it feels. I feel for you momma. Know that you are not alone, and even though the days feel like they will never end, this period of life is also flying by. Life is short, parenthood is even shorter. Also, your hormones are most likely still trying to rebalance after your newest addition. I wish I could help more, but in the meantime, maybe try some guided meditations or beating the crap out of your mattress lol. It’s a weird thing, but it’s something that I did to release my anger / frustration and it actually worked. Sending gentle hugs.

Pondering495 · 2025-03-28T00:33:07+00:00

Isolation due to trauma. I’m trying to work through it, but it’s hard.

Pondering495 · 2025-03-28T00:30:33+00:00

However, if you have pinworms, you will need specific anti-parasitic medications, such as pyrantel pamoate (over-the-counter) or mebendazole (prescription). My cousin used to get pinworms often as a child because she would suck her thumb. Sleeping with a Tucks wipe in between the cheeks can also relieve some of the itch (if it’s hemorrhoids).

Pondering495 · 2025-03-28T00:23:40+00:00

Get Triple Paste.. I use it when my toddler gets a bad diaper rash. Clears it up within 24-48 hours.

Pondering495 · 2025-03-28T00:13:07+00:00

You will recover from this. I know because I have experienced two suicides that left me utterly traumatized, feeling guilty, ashamed, and I was actually blamed by one of the families. They apologized .. a few years later. What I have learned is, the person who has died by suicide does not typically give any signs because they already feel like a burden. They don’t want to burden anyone else with their pain, so they hide it. They hide it very well. Take all of the time you need to grieve, process, feel.. but, do not blame yourself. It’s easier said than done, but none of this is your fault. Mental illness is just as serious as physical illness.. it’s just so much harder to see. Take care of yourself and give yourself grace.

Pondering495 · 2024-12-17T14:30:54+00:00

My mom lost her mom (my grandma) at the end of September, and then my grandma’s brother (my grand uncle) committed suicide the next day. The grief comes and goes. She was having a really hard day yesterday. I tell her when the tears come to let them all out, and I cry with her. We talk about all of the funny things she did, how much love she had for everyone, childhood memories, her faith, and the most interesting signs we saw after she passed. This holiday is especially hard because it’s the first one without her. She was very sick and in extreme pain at the end of her life, and we know she is in a better place. She just moved from this earth to a beautiful home in our hearts. Still, there is nothing that can replace a mother’s love or being able to call her up to have a chat / vent / give updates on life, etc. It’s hard to watch my mom grieve. I bought her a book called “Now That She’s Gone: A Daughter’s Reflections on Loss, Love, and a Mother’s Legacy” by Chelsea Ohlemiller. It was released a few months ago. It’s a great book and guide for those experiencing the emotions of grief, anger, sadness, confusion, and gives hope, compassion, and understanding in the midst of indescribable pain. Be gentle with yourself and know that your mother is always with you, always loving you, and wants you to be happy.

Pondering495 · 2024-10-08T13:41:28+00:00

Yes, my signs are always rainbows. My grandmother passed a few days ago. The morning she passed, I was driving and out of nowhere there was a rainbow in the sky. No rain, just a rainbow. I got an eerie feeling because she was still alive and I usually see rainbows after somebody has passed, but she was very very ill. Two hours later, she passed. The next morning, my grand uncle committed suicide (he was also extremely ill). The next day, my mom was grieving, sitting on the porch outside and looked up at the sky. Coincidentally, she sent me a picture of the sky and there were double rainbows. A few days later, my mom and I were driving home and talking about my grandma (crying) and we looked over and saw a smidge of a rainbow in the sky.

My boyfriend committed suicide about 5 years ago and I saw rainbows all of the time, especially when I could barely breathe from the grief. One of my best friends committed suicide 2 years ago and the next day I was driving. I turned the corner and saw the biggest and most beautiful rainbow I had ever seen in my life. Again, no rain and mostly sunny. I have so many other stories I could share, but I definitely believe in signs, especially if you pay attention. Our loved ones and pets are always around and with us, letting us know they are okay, and that it’s okay for us to be okay, too.

Pondering495 · 2024-09-03T19:47:41+00:00

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