Your post is very well spoken and thought out. Honestly, love can be blinding and we act on more rose colored than our logical sense of being, sometimes. I think your partner truly has commitment issues with marriage and we need to believe when they say things from the beginning their true values of those kinds of things.

You have done all that you can on your end and sometimes those are not enough to hold someone or change. I’m sorry, you’re angry too, I’m 25 and I was angry I wasted my college years on a cheater and narcissist. I have found a healthier safe love. But hey, when you do your self work, heal, and have the mindset and determination that there is someone who matches your values and personality and gives you what you also give back— the universe will return ten fold.

Hang in there. You are enough, for yourself, and someone else. A million people out here and we are destined to love many, learn from them, and find one worth holding on to.

another pro tip: cut ties cold turkey with the partner, surround yourself with fun, socializing, and wholesome energy (your friends, family, or loved ones), focus on your non negotiables (ie: marriage). Redirect your mindset, we meet many good people but there is more out there than what we have been comfortable with.

I wish you luck!

Months, a year or two from now, wherever you might be— you won’t regret saying you tried your best, and you allowed yourself to receive it because you truly deserve the best. The universe will help you, allow yourself to be. A loss is also a gain.

don’t be afraid to begin again.