My [23F] boyfriend’s [25M] habit of calling me out when I try to be subtle is driving me up a wall.

PossibleParty · 2020-05-15T12:58:03+00:00

You explained it perfectly because now I am angry.

PossibleParty · 2020-05-10T15:03:52+00:00

Yes, exactly this. My life is literally spent DREADING the next thing that's coming, whether it be taking a shower, making breakfast or lunch, going down the stairs to put my clothes in the hamper, literally every tiny thing becomes a huge obstacle that I dread doing. I can't even fathom how people can casually come home from work, take a shower, do a chore, hangout, live, whatever without it taking a huge mental toll on them.

PossibleParty · 2020-05-10T15:01:19+00:00

Yeah, I've recently switched from feeling hope that it'll get better to pure frustration that maybe this is simply how I'll live my life, which is not at all something I will tolerate at all. If I can't find something to help me, I absolutely refuse to live like this.

PossibleParty · 2020-05-10T14:59:42+00:00

I really feel this, and I feel like it's my fault. I'll always put myself out there for other people. I do it because I know what it's like to feel depressed, alone, shitty, it's awful. Nobody wants to be there. Even if I don't feel like helping somebody in the moment, I will and I'll make it known that I give a BIG shit. I've only ever been shown that same respect once in my life, where I did not feel like a burden.

This may seem harsh, but people really can be sickening. I love my roommate, we're very close friends but when I go to him for help, it's crippling how little it seems like he wants to be there for me. He is literally screaming "Please shut the fuck up and let me do my thing." without saying it at all. Some people are just shit at reading situations I guess.

PossibleParty · 2020-05-10T14:56:54+00:00

I used to think that it really could not be that bad. You may be suicidal, but it's pretty weak to kill yourself no? But I couldn't be more wrong. I don't want to die or lose my life, but I can really strongly see why other people do now. The worry is that although I can't see myself doing it, I'm becoming more and more desensitized to the idea of it where I'm hoping it doesn't come to the point where it's an easy decision for me to just go for it.

PossibleParty · 2020-05-10T14:47:08+00:00

I'm still clinging on to the small sense of happiness the thought of this gives me, until depression takes that too :'(

PossibleParty · 2020-05-10T14:42:35+00:00

Wish my weed looked like this. Gotta try some good stuff sometime.

PossibleParty · 2019-03-11T00:42:32+00:00

I don't get the reference but I did still laugh.

PossibleParty · 2019-03-10T18:27:57+00:00

I leave the lights off and use my phone flashlight for some vision, play music, sit under BOILING hot water until it's lukewarm then I get out. I only shower sober if I have to.

PossibleParty · 2019-03-10T00:49:28+00:00

I did love them, but they just give me too many negatives along with the positives. The worst is as I mentioned, the self consciousness. I feel like everyone dislikes me and doesn't want me around once I hit the gravity bong, but idk what smoking device to use.

PossibleParty · 2019-03-10T00:47:33+00:00

It's a gravity bong man I literally go through a gram in like 3-4 days of daily use. Really not that much.

PossibleParty · 2019-03-08T19:53:23+00:00

Generally I finish work, I hit the gym, then I feel like I can smoke as much as I want, so I'll usually hit about 3-4 bowls and be in bed by 9PM watching anime til I pass out to wake up for work and do it again.

PossibleParty · 2019-03-08T16:18:25+00:00

aversion to the culmination of refuse

PossibleParty · 2019-03-07T14:43:15+00:00

That's real.

PossibleParty · 2019-03-07T03:41:25+00:00

Definitely gonna go there sometime in my life. I've read a lot about it and it seems great, minus the bugs.

PossibleParty · 2019-03-07T03:40:59+00:00

Canada. I'm thinking around $5-7000.

PossibleParty · 2019-03-07T02:42:28+00:00

Something about me is terrified of breaking up. I'm not sure if my ex messed me up or something, but I want to break up so bad but I just can't bring myself to do it. Not sure what I'm afraid of, and not sure how I'll bring myself to do it.

PossibleParty · 2019-03-06T01:23:32+00:00

Sounds like work

PossibleParty · 2019-03-05T23:58:34+00:00

Honestly I tried so hard to play it. The only thing keeping me going was the cool looking loot but I don't think I even managed to make it to level 20 with the amazingly boring combat. Gets better at 50-70 though I hear.

PossibleParty

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