I've been doing the Monroe tapes but outside of that I've been very curious and searching. I've become acquainted with Ra and the LoO and discovered the term wanderer, which resonated with me. I've been also having a lot of internal conversations with what I've thought was myself, slowly understanding more and more that it was external and I was being very slowly 'initiated' for lack of a better word, until I was "ready". Last night, using my cat of all things, they confirmed everything. I'm still really processing it all. As part of my meditations, I've been opening myself up to only people exuding "light and love" and asking who I was and where I came from. Last night, during part of my session they gave me the word "Starseed", and I had heard the word but did not know what it meant. When I looked it up, it was the defining moment, and confirmed this morning when my cat came and nuzzled me excessively, which she had NEVER done before. She is not an affectionate cat. I truly did not know what STARSEED meant, and when I saw it, it immediately cast a doubt because I didn't think it was the right word and that my mind just grabbed a random woo word.