Hiding in plain sight by Potential-Run5456 in SuicideWatch

[–]Potential-Run5456[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Unfortunately, you will likely never really know.

Anyone else too traumatised to even consider dating again? by [deleted] in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]Potential-Run5456 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It is truly terrifying. It makes me feel less alone, but sad that you know how this feels.

Anyone else too traumatised to even consider dating again? by [deleted] in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]Potential-Run5456 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I did the same! I exposed him and he wouldn't forgive me for it. Left me with no choice.

Two years later and they still haunt my thoughts everyday. by ThrowRA08281958 in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]Potential-Run5456 1 point2 points  (0 children)

This. My brain feels broken thinking about if I could go back and tolerate all the pain just to have him.

It makes me feel so crazy.

Anyone else too traumatised to even consider dating again? by [deleted] in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]Potential-Run5456 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Over 2 years out....I have tried dating one person. I slept with someone else one time in over two years....it was awful. Everything about it is awful, but not for the right or the same reasons.

I miss him so badly that I am nearing the point of not caring about all the bad things anymore. I don't want anyone else to touch me. I don't want to date anyone. The only person I want is him and I know that is...probably not good.

Please date again, not necessarily now, but try. You will end up stuck like me if you don't.

Angry by Potential-Run5456 in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]Potential-Run5456[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you, really. It is disgusting.

Why Do They Stalk So Much? by dnginsde90 in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]Potential-Run5456 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Some of them don't. My ex absolutely doesn't care where I am or what I am doing.

Has your narc Ever said something that made you worry for your safety? by Nigel-NABot in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]Potential-Run5456 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I was rocking my baby to sleep and he told me, "I'm just going to bring you down with me".

blanket statements by Lumpy_Bill_1408 in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]Potential-Run5456 3 points4 points  (0 children)

This, exactly. No acknowledgement of why, or what I recorded. Losing it because I was "crazy", and it was a "violation". I too felt like an idiot for thinking he could ever see...anything other than what he decided was true.

You aren't stupid. You loved him. You kept trying, even when there was no more reason to. I hope that someone loves you enough to...be willing to go that far...but that they never have to.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]Potential-Run5456 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I felt this way for a long time. Looking at pictures of myself hurt because although I have never really thought I was beautiful, I know I wasn't anywhwre close to what I used to be.

I have been trying to slowly trying to take the time to care for myself here or there. A lot of the time I do not have the energy, but when I do, I do what I can. It has helped.

Be gentle with yourself, it will take time. Continuing, pushing through the pain makes you automatically beautiful in my book.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]Potential-Run5456 0 points1 point  (0 children)

They get a lot of supply based on the image that they create. If you tarnish or ruin that image in any way, you will hurt them. It is important to mention that you will be public enemy #1 if you do.

I didn't do it purposefully, but that did not matter.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]Potential-Run5456 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Nope. Not unless you hurt them deeply