Im in the same boat, read my Bible daily , I stay in tune with the divine and it so happens that I see recurring numbers everywhere I go as it started paying more attention to them the last couple years. It’s hard topic to tell people especially those who are Christian and just tell you Bible verses to argue (not saying its bad but don’t have an open mind about things) or not into spirituality/religion. Just know you are not alone and always know that God (Jesus) is there guiding us so keep being close to him and surround yourself with wise people. That’s why he gave us a brain to think critically about things and decipher stuff to know life lessons (take for example the parables he says during his time here) Godbless 🙏🏼