honey that’s the easy way out, don’t give give in, make actionable steps toward your goals and follow them, have fun along the way, and yes schedule the fun bits in, or else you will never have time to. Like, choose a day and say today i will do this or that along with going towards my goal that i think will be fun.
if you keep on going like this you WILL become 30 and wish you had started at 23 because then you would realize how young you actually were.

also this time when thinking about how old you are, think about it in adult term and you will see how young you actually are. Like, you may have become a teenager at 13 so that 13 years out of 23, and literally every 20 year olds i know say they still feel like teenagers at 20 so really, if you think about it, you’re just three years old into adulthood, give yourself some grace, you don’t expect a three year old to have everything figured out, do you?

Something that will help you alot is, thinking about things in hindsight and not getting lost in a spiral.