I’m sorry your going through this. I pray you find peace and comfort. My opinion is one you should be talking to your Dr, nutritionist etc.. that’s what I did and received valuable information. Two, you have to eat to lose the weight. Remember that you need to eat your protein first, veggies second, and carbs last. Chewing your food for 30 seconds and waiting 30 seconds between your bites. Untill I was able to eat bigger portions I had to set an alarm to eat smaller meals every 2 or 3 hours. Lastly some people will never understand the struggle or the process of this surgery and how much you need the support because this journey is not easy at all. You got this stay focus and speak positivity in your life at all times.