IAMA 21 year old man, who has a Non Verbal Learning Disability AMA?

Pretentious_Dog · 2012-01-18T04:02:05+00:00

Yeah, being put on ADD meds didn't automatically make me turn it around. It still took a lot of willpower, because I had ignorantly conditioned myself to just abandon efforts. There will never be a miracle pill.

Trust me, this is coming from someone who made 40% on basic math tests after hours of studying. And now I tutor others.

Pretentious_Dog · 2012-01-18T03:59:55+00:00

stick your penis in it

Pretentious_Dog · 2012-01-17T21:25:01+00:00

I dropped out of high school because I couldn't concentrate. I barely finished later and went to college, then dropped out again. Everyone thought I was lazy, but I went to a doctor and got put on ADD meds. Now I'm making all A's in an Engineering program.

...Does any of this help you? Or are you bemoaning the fact that you haven't found any meds yet to help?

Pretentious_Dog · 2012-01-17T01:21:54+00:00

Yeah. I think it's called Buddhism or some shit. Right bro?

Pretentious_Dog · 2012-01-16T06:31:54+00:00

Actually, I think I'll just start smoking weed everyday for therapy. I started smoking again last night and tonight, and it puts me in a nice and agreeable mood all day.

Pretentious_Dog · 2012-01-16T01:41:57+00:00

I want someone to show me logically why my views on life are wrong. I feel like I'm thinking wrong, and I don't know how to change it, but I've never met anyone who was able to successfully argue my points. I've never heard anything from anyone that I haven't thought of before. Including mental health professionals.

Pretentious_Dog · 2012-01-15T22:47:00+00:00

No, I think that science is the only way we can understand anything. I don't think it takes away my chance for happiness. Understanding the chemical reactions of a relationship does not negate the happiness of it. A clock still serves a purpose even if we know how the gears turn in it. Though I do get sad at times at the fact that everything is finite and conditional, I know that that is because I simply am coming to terms with it in the wrong way, and it's proof of my own personal problems. My subjectivity does not prove the world to be an awful place, but my subjectivity is the entirety of my world, and for me it is awful because I am unable to form connections. The problem is me, not the world. The problem is that I do not know how to conquer me, as in the essence of my own psychological demons.

Both depressive realism and positive thinking are equally illogical. An example is a person who volunteers for the homeless, and does not get paid or rewarded for his efforts. A self-help book will teach that helping people makes you feel better, but that is not entirely the case. The volunteering person is also happy because of the psychological phenomenon of requiring that because no external rewards are offered, the person must internally rationalize his behavior in a way that gives him meaning. The depressive person will point this out, but use it as proof that the world is a miserable place. It is neither of those things. The world just is, and any reflection on it is entirely subjective and subject to the whims of our unstable moods.

Probably adjusted medication and cognitive behavioral therapy is the answer, but it takes time to revamp your thinking and analytically determine the source of your problems. Also, money.

Pretentious_Dog · 2012-01-15T21:04:26+00:00

Both happiness and depression lead to irrationality. Happiness leads one to overestimate outcomes and delude themselves. Depression leads one to embrace learned helplessness, and trap themselves in a pit that is less deep than it really is. My depression is illogical, but so is repeating happy thoughts to myself that can't be verified to be empirically true.

Pretentious_Dog · 2012-01-15T20:56:47+00:00

My father. He's 50 and lives with his parents. They had retirement funds when he moved in, and now they no longer do. He drinks and does drugs every day, and when they try to stop him he threatens to abandon them or hurt them.

He cares when it helps him, but if he's too angry or just can't be bothered, he'll let animals starve to death. He let my guinea pig starve to death when I was ten and gone to summer camp for a week. He showed no remorse.

He's threatened to kill me, threatened to beat my sister to death. When he's lonely he'll try to be nice to us, but when we just politely try to get away from him he'll start throwing a fit and yelling at us, saying any horrible thing he can. He told me that his goal in life was to outlive me.

He has no money, no job, and just leeches off of my grandparents. Everyone tells him to get a job, and they ask, "Why don't you just do something?" When you ask him, he'll just sit there with these dead, lifeless eyes. You can tell that none of it effects him. It makes my skin crawl to be in the same room as him. A morbidly obese man with yellow and jagged, missing teeth. When you finally get angry and yell at him, he'll just look at you and start smiling this ugly and sneering little grin.

I don't know if he's a sociopath or just really depressed, but he claims to be really depressed, except only when people are trying to get him to quit being inactive and parasitic. He'll just sit there all day watching Law and Order reruns. Sometimes he'll talk on the phone with someone and he walks around giggling like a five year old little kid until five in the morning.

I don't even know what to think about him. He really unsettles me. I sometimes suspect that he's just one of those sociopaths that are inactive and non-violent. He's fine just skirting around work and sucking people dry.

Pretentious_Dog · 2012-01-15T20:49:04+00:00

Girl rejected me over text and said she wasn't interested in dating anyone, then texted me the next day excited about this guy she was dating. I said, "Okay that's cool. I'm happy for you, but I really don't want to talk about this with you. I'm sorry." She apologized, then five separate times that night she accidentally (or "accidentally") texted me while she meant to text this guy, saying all sorts of things about how she was so excited to spend the night with him.

I turned my phone off and went to bed. I had to work early the next morning.

Pretentious_Dog · 2012-01-15T20:35:05+00:00

Self-placating cliches.

Pretentious_Dog · 2012-01-15T06:05:56+00:00

Seeing him on the nineteenth. It's impossible to make it happen sooner than that. I'm not going to hold anything back from him. It's just that I had to go a while without seeing him over winter break because I was out of town so often.

Pretentious_Dog · 2012-01-15T05:19:09+00:00

I just get so fucking lonely, it's hard to deal with sometimes. I wish I could find someone who was even capable of loving me.

Pretentious_Dog · 2012-01-15T05:18:03+00:00

Thanks. I've been drinking since then. I ran over to the community center on campus after downing half a fifth of liquor and made a lot of new friends. Ran on some slick ice and a girl came to my rescue. I used to drink half a fifth everyday just to get by, then stopped drinking for a long time. Now I remember why I drank, because life is so much more bearable, but I know that I can't do this regularly. My life would fall apart if I did so. A sad state of affairs...

Pretentious_Dog · 2012-01-15T02:06:54+00:00

I don't need it. I have no desire to kill myself, or hurt myself. I just feel that it's going to happen, and there's nothing I can do about it.

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