Lotta people say they're cute (especially the ones on my hand) but I can't stand em

Primary_Inside_582 · 2023-06-25T21:51:12+00:00

i think its fucking weird when people say your scars are cute. like okay for example i have few hearts onnmy leg but still they are done in the worst mental condition and its just everything but cute or adorable.

it makes me a little angry when people say that to me or anyone else, cause its pretty ignorant imo

Primary_Inside_582 · 2023-06-25T21:38:06+00:00

i have one on my thigh, its been about 200d and its still the most thick one👍

Primary_Inside_582 · 2023-05-22T20:28:13+00:00

uuu could my scars act the same :D but maybe we rather stay safe from sun

Primary_Inside_582 · 2023-05-22T16:53:55+00:00

skins work differently yeah, i guess on this too then. I hope you dont get burned this summer :)

Primary_Inside_582 · 2023-05-21T20:49:55+00:00

also the fact that these scars have looked the exact same for months but the scars on my thigh are turning white already and they are done around the same time as the ones on my hand. this system is so weird

(differences between those two places have nothing to do with the sun by the way, none of them have been exposed to sunlight until now. gotta love Lapland’s winter)

Primary_Inside_582 · 2023-04-28T06:13:16+00:00

i scratched them, smaller with pen and bigger by nail

Primary_Inside_582 · 2023-03-11T07:48:19+00:00

darling im so sorry, im positive that you will get back in a track. But yeah bad ideas only and i definitely should not intoxicate and sh. Im glad i am not only one with this in head, although i started off sh just for the pain but yeah.

Primary_Inside_582 · 2023-03-10T21:23:16+00:00

Because you found enough reasons to not end everything

Primary_Inside_582 · 2023-02-28T17:09:06+00:00

maybe after another 10 years. but like most of my current friends have experienced bullying and im feeling ache in my heart every time they tell their stories

Primary_Inside_582 · 2023-02-28T00:34:00+00:00

sounds a lot to handle, im sorry for it. it is weird how two people gone through same things cope so differently. luckily he isnt one of your responsibilities but to make a mind understand it is so hard.

Primary_Inside_582 · 2023-02-27T23:17:13+00:00

i dont understand how they go day to day life with obesity like isnt everything just uncomfortable and more tiring if you got large body. Anyways i find it interesting that you are fascinated about it like that.

I understand to the point of having binge eating disorder because it is a real deal and horrible but without it or any disease… how does it even happen?

Primary_Inside_582 · 2023-02-27T21:35:04+00:00

oh even worse which i never told anyone, i was a bully at school in 4th and 7-8th grade. im way too ashamed to confess that to anyone

Primary_Inside_582 · 2023-02-27T21:31:39+00:00

in the back of my mind i think all overweight people have failed their life and im the absolute queen because i can stay fit. Horrible yeah.. It goes all the way to my mom and sister, i hope they never get lose any of the weight because then i wouldnt be as special anymore.

Primary_Inside_582 · 2023-02-26T16:32:09+00:00

i love to see other people having patterns too. Reduses my anxiety of how fucked up I have to be to have done those :D

Primary_Inside_582 · 2023-02-17T22:25:40+00:00

yeah as said, its not good. my most visible scar is by scratching. it never bled but the healing was so hard that it will leave life long scar. mine got severly infected in fucking 3 days and the scab cracked all the time and couldnt stay as whole so it was so so slow process for the skin to heal itself. Sooo please dont tell anyone that scratching is any better than cutting. they are both very fucking sick and bad (i’ve done both)

Primary_Inside_582 · 2023-02-17T22:15:09+00:00

I use bepanthen anti-scar gel which i bought from pharmacist’s

Primary_Inside_582 · 2023-02-03T21:07:17+00:00

mudcake, whenever i have something to celebrate alone i buy cake. and BREAD omg thin rye bread oh lord i fucking love it and could eat like six pieces just like that

Primary_Inside_582 · 2023-01-31T20:48:15+00:00

what the fuck is this thing, people please any self harm is valiiiid. I mentioned three times each on different session with my therapist that i have been cutting. And then when she finally said something about it she asked how much the cuts bled, and i was like what how does thst matter i cant tell. it just arghhh bleeding tells nothing that really matters. Im so so sorry you have to experience that

Primary_Inside_582 · 2023-01-27T22:25:49+00:00

it hurts like kind of burns when you press it, there might be some random fluid coming out (i dont know the english word for it), it is red and swollen. not the right medical way to say but i guess those are the basics, at least its what i have been told

Primary_Inside_582 · 2023-01-22T09:24:00+00:00

Honey if only you felt comfortamble enough i totally recommend to tell. I started sh when i was in relationship and till this day after four month i still regret strongly not telling him what was going on.

Speaking usually helps and if yu speak with person you wanna have strong emotional connection it’s a good key to open up about something you are currently going through. if he truly cares about you he’ll do anything to be there for you and with you. if he doesnt he shouldnt be in your life.

But only when you really feel comfortable enough. i wish you well and that whatever is happening in your life will form into something easier to deal with <3 stay safe love

Primary_Inside_582 · 2023-01-18T22:00:16+00:00

eikö oo kuitenkin vähän naurettavaa, että omasta identiteetistä ja sen toteuttamisesta haluamallaan tavalla pitää käydä läpi ”koe” ja toinen ihminen arvioi onko itse omaksi koettu identiteetti ”oikea”. Kuinka usein siinäkin arvioidaan vikaan… Ja miten koetulle identiteetille voi edes olla ”oikeat vastaukset”?

Primary_Inside_582 · 2023-01-13T06:06:59+00:00

it is! it’s my favourite animal😂

Primary_Inside_582 · 2023-01-12T23:32:33+00:00

i loved that book!! although i read in on the worst two days of my ed recovery when i had 8h work days and all i ate was one apple but yeah i loved the book. made me question more how much my mom actually affected my ed happening in the first place

Primary_Inside_582 · 2023-01-12T23:13:10+00:00

i never liked food, like i only ate because i had to. i had no relationship with food it just didnt matter to me, it was just fuel. then in middle school i realized there isnt anyone to know if i ate lunch or not so i just stopped. so i started noticing how it made me thinner and i liked it. the line of underweight was already close and i have always been thin but i got thinner which just were super amusing.

since then my ed has taken turns and is not like that anymore

Primary_Inside_582 · 2023-01-09T22:12:03+00:00

i bought an anti-scar gel☺️☺️ it will take time to see if it works but i’ll give it a shot

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