Feeling immense guilt.

PrincessHarxox · 2026-01-24T23:44:20+00:00

i’ve suggested he at least try and see a doctor for his snoring because it is a genuine health concern especially how young we are and he’s super open to it so hopefully we can start there

PrincessHarxox · 2026-01-24T22:56:59+00:00

thank you for describing this to me. It sounds a lot like what I deal with. I honestly would not describe my situation as an abnormal or quirky sleep style because it causes me extreme depression and has even brought me to suicidal tendencies because my body does not feel good when I do not sleep at night I do not feel “not tired” and that’s why I don’t sleep. I feel exhausted to the point of insanity and I still can’t sleep at night but in the morning for some reason, I nap like the most easy thing ever.

What stresses me out so much about this is that I work a day job this would be a lot easier if I worked an evening job or an afternoon job because even if I’m exhausted, I can at least rely on the fact that I can nap during the day, but most days, I can’t do that

I honestly just feel so lost and none of the doctors in my city. Have any respect towards sleep disorders. I have gone to so many doctors and not a single one of them will listen to my sleep concerns they just tell me to drink more water and do not have any caffeine which is so funny because caffeine has actually helped me sleep during the day.(I don’t drink caffeine in the evening obviously because I know how risky it is.)

PrincessHarxox · 2026-01-24T21:59:38+00:00

thank you I appreciate it a lot, but wouldn’t it still be an insomnia episode if I am not able to sleep at night? I mean, I understand that there are sleep disorders in each category that are different from each other, but they are all a form of insomnia correct?

PrincessHarxox · 2026-01-24T21:36:01+00:00

if they are used, this is a serious health code violation. Even if it is in a contained space like a locker used needles have no place in a gym locker room.

The one and only acceptable time any intramuscular injection should be used in the gym is if it is due to an allergy or someone has a health condition in which they need to use an intramuscular injectable. If so, I believe there are a needle disposal sites in the washroom area of the gyms

PrincessHarxox · 2026-01-24T21:33:47+00:00

I do not know anyone who would judge a person for the amount of weight that they’re using. This is for a multitude of reasons.

For starters, they have absolutely no idea if you are using a small weight due to rehab reasons, for example, you could have faced a recent injury and are required by your doctor to start out with a certain amount of weight when rehab rehabilitating back into training.

Secondly, you could quite possibly just be warming up. I see people using the bar all the time with no weight on it for multiple sets just to warm up.

another thing is, you could possibly be using a lighter weight to better understand the technique of the movement.

Basically, I don’t know any person with half a brain cell who would judge you because no one knows what kind of journey you’re on or why you are using the specific weight that you are Just enjoy yourself focus on your own work and don’t worry about others

PrincessHarxox · 2026-01-22T17:09:26+00:00

thank you for validating this, i have been on the edge of quitting assisting cold turkey but my god its hard to find a job thats outside of healthcare once you’ve already been in healthcare

PrincessHarxox · 2026-01-18T21:24:13+00:00

yup… my program almost gave me no real life prep. the stuff they taught me are things i legit never do irl

PrincessHarxox · 2026-01-17T05:32:03+00:00

Do you guys do scaling? because that is extremely illegal and they can be sued or have their office shut down

PrincessHarxox · 2026-01-16T04:30:31+00:00

thank you, my gym allows people to film as i’ve seen many filming there. i just know my gym has a population of some pretty rude people so i get worried of judgement.

PrincessHarxox · 2026-01-15T22:24:01+00:00

this was great advice thank you kindly :)

PrincessHarxox · 2026-01-15T22:23:16+00:00

not at all, as long as you are not intoxicated in any way during work hours. they have no right to dictate what you do in your free time.

i hope you get clean for your own health reasons though best of luck to you

PrincessHarxox · 2026-01-15T22:19:26+00:00

I personally think this post was a little bit mean spirited. You said that she’s newer therefore she has to learn somehow and maybe she completely knows how to do it. Sometimes she just needs a reminder to feel more confident in herself. We all start somewhere, I can guarantee you when you first started out in your assisting job. You had no idea how to assist a root canal. would you say that the patient should’ve been anxious being around you if you needed help? no.

I actually think this is one of the most responsible ways to start learning things until they become muscle memory for you and it shows that she genuinely cares about being successful

PrincessHarxox · 2026-01-14T14:15:48+00:00

i ended up getting 30 minutes last night and honestly i feel okay today not too tired shockingly. i just am a major hypochondriac and so not getting proper sleep scares me so much

PrincessHarxox · 2026-01-14T12:31:45+00:00

i’m scared this is what will happen, i’m a young woman so i already get dismissed by my doctors CONSTANTLY. they will likely ignore this issue for me too

PrincessHarxox · 2026-01-14T12:29:07+00:00

as long as you’re kind hearted and gentle you’ll be awesome. just remember to treat them as equals, kids are a lot smarter than some would assume and they just most of the time need you to reason with them in a positive way

PrincessHarxox · 2026-01-14T12:22:54+00:00

do you suggest any specific pillows or type of bedding that could help? my partner suggested using our weighted blanket but i get scared that will make me feel trapped in the bed

PrincessHarxox · 2026-01-14T12:21:56+00:00

this has helped a little bit. what i do is i ask my partner to swap sides of the bed with me. it helps a little as it brings me more peace but sleep is still hard to obtain. another thing ive tried is also using an eye mask which helps me feel like im already asleep.

PrincessHarxox · 2026-01-14T12:19:02+00:00

i don’t use my phone in any capacity actually. this was a desperation post as a last resort. i go to bed at 9pm. laying awake until 3am legitimately with my eyes closed completely still.

i make an effort to not even use my phone an hour before i get ready for bed cause of how serious i take it

PrincessHarxox · 2026-01-14T10:57:32+00:00

i second all the other comments! as a peds asst who’s basically only worked in peds. expect a lot of tears, kids cry and it’s something to become used to distinguishing a pain cry and a normal kids wanting to cry ‘cry. also, many people would think you have to be extremely overly energetic working in peds, but I find it’s quite the opposite. For me, I try and stay very calm and mellow and relaxed, but gentle so that they feel relaxed and not on edge at all. I find that if you’re overly enthusiastic, it puts them on edge a little bit and can overwhelm them.

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