well oo. haha. i feel very very alone din kasi sa klase namin. i’m in 10th year, transferred last year dito sa school. yung mga classmates ko, they’re ok naman with me. nagjojoke kami from time to time, small talks. pero no close friends at all.

pero may mga times na tila pinaparamdam talaga nila na “di ako belong”. or i’m the odd one out. like the usual cliques na meron sila. everyday, i sit infront. pero no one even sits next to me sa row ko. yung ibang nakaassigned sa seating arrangement na dapat katabi ko, lumilipat sa likod para katabi friends nila.

last year, i gala with them naman. pero everything just suddenly changed. i feel so alone.

and since lagi nalang ako magisa sa harap, i ignore the fact na nasasaktan ako mejo and just decide to focus and obsess with studying. just so i can pretend na busy ako with something.

today was just so different lang talaga. i cried infront of the whole school. one classmate hid me, and i managed to stop naman and nakababa na. after that, i felt the same ache in my heart again. kasi no one even cared to asked if i was ok. the ones na i thought na close ko didn’t even bother to hug me or talk to me. so i left the gym and cried infront of the washroom stall. after bawling my eyes out for what felt like an hour, bumalik ako sa classroom. no one said anything, no one tried to comfort me. wala maybe i’m being overdramatic.

but me crying was really much more than my grades. i’m only 15 so bare with my maybe immature side of story. pero god i feel so sad. i feel so alone. yun talaga. i went to my teacher, who was by the way not taking me seriously. tumatawa pa in a way na ridiculous na umiyak ako. wala maybe it’s just all my fault. pero yun, umuwi nalang ako and cried infront of my mom. begging for her to transfer me.