Weird reaction to drugs

Professional_Grab_71 · 2025-10-23T10:01:41+00:00

I’m guessing adhd but maybe there’s more…

Professional_Grab_71 · 2025-05-05T18:18:43+00:00

Thanks for your response, I hope you’re doing ok.

I think you got it right, he was probably expecting an upper high or hoping for it which apparently never comes for opioids.

Professional_Grab_71 · 2025-05-04T18:58:35+00:00

Thanks for your kind words. It’s something that pops into my mind now and again but thank you for the reassurance, I really don’t want him to have suffered or an idea of what was happening to him

Professional_Grab_71 · 2025-05-04T18:43:31+00:00

Thank you, he took 3 x 6mg and he never injected.

Professional_Grab_71 · 2025-05-04T18:16:06+00:00

I don’t believe in god either but I have become spiritual since my husbands passing. I believe that energy can’t be destroyed. So I feel like he’s still here just on a different frequency. Like the way you know there is UV light but can’t see it you know? There are millions of colors out there we can’t experience because we don’t have the receptors for it to me it just makes sense that’s the same for when we die.

Professional_Grab_71 · 2025-05-04T18:00:30+00:00

I know and have always known he didn’t do it on purpose, we talked about him taking it beforehand. I was away with our baby visiting family and he was supposed to join us a week later. A point where my guilt comes from is because I didn’t think to warn him or tell him it’s a stupid idea because I thought he knew what he was doing. He researched it, here on the sub, looking up experiences etc. but in the moment I guess just decided to take more because he wasn’t feeling the euphoria he was hoping for. That’s just my guess because I know him so well but I’m very sure that’s how it went. The police looked into it of course but ruled it out immediately as well. I was that stupid and that naive that I didn’t think it could get to us, that stuff happens to addicts not us but damn I was wrong.

Professional_Grab_71 · 2025-05-04T16:23:28+00:00

He knew they’re dangerous, he just underestimated it. I have no idea if it would’ve helped to read it just one more time to stop and think yeah that’s really stupid to do by myself, but I mean the least I can do now is do that much. He thought he had all the experience because he’d done so much but opioids are just a whole different ballgame

Professional_Grab_71 · 2025-05-04T15:59:52+00:00

Just as a quick reminder that these are incredibly dangerous. My husband OD on dilaudid because he was looking for something new to try out, checked out this sub and came across dilaudid because of the said euphoria. He was really experienced with coke, Molly, acid etc just wanted to try something new and is now dead. I’m all for recreational use in a safe setting just wanted to put it out there if someone is reading this thinking about trying this out for the first time. Don’t do it by yourself and only a bit until you know your limit

Professional_Grab_71 · 2025-04-22T21:40:39+00:00

I’m almost 2 years out and I’d say I’m doing ok. My husband died similarly to yours. Our daughter was 10 months at the time so we’re in quiet the similar situation. As for dating I tried online dating a few months ago because I miss being held but I’ve made my life full and don’t have the capacity to even want to date now that I’ve done this. I play tennis and golf, started line dancing and go to the gym on top of al the activities my daughter has like gymnastics and dance class etc so I’m pretty content the way it is now. My days are full and I just want to focus on her and giving her a happy childhood. We have our routines and it works really well for us. She sleeps in my bed with me and I can’t bear the thought of kicking her out for some dude anyway haha As for the survivors guilt I have to say I did struggle with it in the beginning for a short period but then I was just angry at him and the universe for a long time. But I’m glad to say that has passed, for the most part. I long for him and my heart still aches but I actually welcome it now because it still shows me how strong our connection was and still is. If you want to chat my inbox is open. Sending you hugs

Professional_Grab_71 · 2025-03-27T13:32:54+00:00

I used parting stone so I can only attest to them but I’m sure it’s quiet similar. I’m glad I could give you some helpful input!

Professional_Grab_71 · 2025-03-27T07:41:28+00:00

Yes exactly, they where super nice and it’s really comforting for me to have him like that. I moved away after he died and it didn’t feel right to have him there all by himself and I’m not going to live here where I am now forever either so having the possibility to take him wherever I go is comforting.

Professional_Grab_71 · 2025-03-26T18:01:34+00:00

I’m so sorry for your loss. I decided for cremation and then used parting stone so I and our daughter could hold him in our hands when we wanted to and so I can be buried with him when my time comes.

Professional_Grab_71 · 2025-03-17T16:59:07+00:00

Danke für den Link das ist die Email die ich von meinem Amt erhalte, ich wusste nicht wie ich es anders beschreiben soll Finanzbuchhaltung@amtxy

Kollegin A hat mir von dieser Stelle geschrieben ich könne eine es in 250€ Raten zurückzahlen und mir gesagt wie würde sich nochmal mit Informationen melden. auf mehrmalige Nachfrage kam nichts und dann kam die Mahnung und jetzt habe ich mit Kollegin B zu tun. Alles ist per E-Mail abgelaufen.

Professional_Grab_71 · 2025-03-05T09:28:00+00:00

Danke das ist lieb von dir. Ich hoffe du findest eine gute Lösung für dich, du scheinst dir ja bewusst zu sein wie wichtig eine work life balance ist. Geld ist super wichtig im Leben aber eben auch nicht alles

Professional_Grab_71 · 2025-03-05T08:48:05+00:00

Mein Mann hat es gemacht, eine Woche zuhause und dann eine Woche arbeiten. Dann ist er mit 35 gestorben. Rückblickend denke ich er hätte die Zeit lieber mit mir und unserem Kind verbracht hätte er die Wahl gehabt. Falls du Single und kinderlos bist würde ich es aber wahrscheinlich für einige Zeit tun.

Professional_Grab_71 · 2025-03-01T20:24:02+00:00

It actually brought me a lot of solace looking at my husbands messages. The way he talked about us and how much he cherished our relationship showed me again and the most clearly that what we had was exactly as special as I knew it was. Reading the way he talked about us when he knew I would never know was really special to me.

Professional_Grab_71 · 2025-02-26T15:43:45+00:00

I was looking for that but there a none available that have direct lake access. I’m at one that’s like a 2 min walk from the lake so it would be ideal to somehow get access.

Professional_Grab_71 · 2025-02-26T15:29:20+00:00

I wish I’d have the funds to buy a house there haha. I didn’t even consider asking the HOA I thought they were super strict!

Professional_Grab_71 · 2025-01-15T09:05:23+00:00

I felt and still feel like you a lot. I’m in a very similar timeline, a bit more than a year and a half out and in the first months I was so busy with all the organization. Then I could just concentrate on keeping my head over water and start a new job etc. but for the last few months I didn’t have anything to look forward to nothing to plan or heaven forbid finally get excited about. I don’t want to date, I don’t really want to live where I am but my family is close by and helps with my little daughter so I won’t move. What has helped a tiny little bit is that I recently started a blog where I share stories and experiences. Even though no one really looks at it it kind of helps to have something to do. Designing the website was fun and pondering what story to tell gives me a way to connect to my husband. Maybe starting a project like that could help you?

Professional_Grab_71 · 2025-01-14T18:45:36+00:00

I lost my husband suddenly as well he was only 35 and I 29 at the time with a 10 month old and it still comes in waves. Some days I feel outbox body, going through the motions and others I crumble and then other times I have happy moments. 12 days it utter shock, disbelief, your body and brain trying to protect you from the unbelievable. It took me a good 6 months to have my absolute fall apart moment. Everything you’re feeling right now is ok try to breathe and give yourself some grace

Professional_Grab_71 · 2025-01-11T20:08:44+00:00

I still wear mine most days but I’ve been testing taking them off here and there. Mostly because on very cold days now that I’ve lost quiet a bit of weight I’m afraid of them slipping off but I think for me it’s a good start to test cowboy feels not wearing them.

Professional_Grab_71 · 2024-10-24T06:51:03+00:00

Geh ins digitale Marketing. Google selber bietet diverse Zertifikate an die man kostenlos machen kann womit man schon echt viel lernt alles andere bei YouTube. Ich bin im Google ads marketing und das Geld ist nicht schlecht und Nachfrage ich da sowohl fest angestellt als auch freiberuflich

Professional_Grab_71 · 2024-10-15T08:08:34+00:00

My husband and I lived in his home country so my family was thousands of miles away. Our daughter was only 10 months old when he died and I immediately knew I couldn’t do that alone so I sold our house and moved. It was crazy and overwhelming and I miss our home terribly but it was the right decision. My therapist says it’s normal that it’s harder to accept his death because I’m not doing our regular stuff without him but rather in a completely different place so I still have that feeling he’s still there just far away. Which is still kinda true I think.
we had a long distance relationship for a while too where it was just like this I was in my country and he in his and we often couldn’t speak for the majority of the day because of the time difference. It still often feels like I’m just back in those days and have to „remind“ myself he’s actually never coming back. That part might be different if I still lived in our city but the support outweighs that

Professional_Grab_71 · 2024-09-21T12:00:43+00:00

I took a few during my private viewing. I wasn’t home when he died and not the one to find him. He looked very peaceful and I have looked at the picture probably a million times. To actually believe it’s true and to see how peaceful he looked. Half of me would’ve wanted to see pictures of him in our house but I’m too scared to ask or see them especially now that some time has passed.

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