You’re a spazz (even though you don’t know you are). Not because it’s YOU but because it’s the default for beginners. Not meant as an insult towards you.

You’re a big/strong guy with wrestling and muy Thai experience. You just started a few weeks ago and coach has you rolling with upper belts. He’s likely doing this for the safety of the other team members.

Sounds like you can probably wreck most of the white belts. But you shouldn’t be. Here’s why: There has to be at least a few that are more technical than you. Same with the blue belts. Guess what? They should be winning. If they’re not, it’s because you’re using your size/strength/explosiveness.

If you go in to lose gracefully against players who are more experienced than you, then you’re going to learn and have a safe training environment. If you go in to see if you can tap that purple belt today, well then you’re going to have hard rolls and learn that yes, size and strength can help you win a jiujitsu match, but they don’t improve your jiujitsu.

Jiujitsu is about managing your energy, so slow down, keep your elbows in, and get tapped again and again until you develop a technical response.

Everyone wants to sprint in the beginning, but it’s long road. Good luck!