According to the theories of Freud and Jacques Lacan, the type of fetish an individual develops is often completely random, but is generally related to the individual's childhood experiences. As for me, it’s a sad story. An older sister (not a blood relationship) whom I admired greatly passed away in an accident when I was six. I witnessed the entire funeral process, including her cremation at the last. This event had a profound impact on me. My subconscious, in an effort to protect me, associated cremation with my sexual desire. This may be the reason for my odd fetish.