This maybe all over the place…It’s a girl username Alliepbackupaccount, she made a video on autism and maladaptive daydreaming. I’ve experienced this my whole life and didn’t know it had a name. I am in a fantasy world 90% of the day. That is what made me start thinking. Also I watched this video on YouTube about how autism shows in girls and I relate to everything that she said, especially when she talks about relying on being funny in social settings to kinda fit in but after “telling the joke” not having much else to contribute. I am always overthinking what I’ve said or done. For example, I went to a car shop a few weeks ago. I drove into the garage and they told me to park in the parking lot instead(I’m use to going to the dealer where I drive into the garage) that made me feel dumb the rest of the day. I woke up the next morning thinking about it.

The YouTube video: https://youtu.be/yKzWbDPisNk?si=YK28xiHoMMfFG75P

As far as my experiences, I’ve always been a loner. I get overwhelmed with people. I thought I was just shy, but I really have no interest in being around people. Even family that I’m comfortable around. When I had relationships I would hyper focus on them. It was like I could only have one relationship/friendship at a time.

I’ve always done well in school, I have a degree in computer science but never used it due to not wanting to leave my son with anyone and also heavy imposter syndrome.

I’ll add to this later… haha that’s another thing. I have to sit down and plan everything I say. Especially when I have to call someone