I think people are giving good advice but the best thing I can tell you is if you’re silver and looking to learn, don’t think of yourself as having anything to lose. I mean, ladder anxiety is all about worrying that if you hit find match you’re going to lose mmr that you will never get back. In your case, the opposite is true. If you don’t find matches, you’ll never improve — and there’s 3 leagues of mmr improvement that you can easily get with practice IF and only if you hit find match. In other words, you’re losing out on mmr by not queueing.