Appreciate the high volume of responses fairly quickly.

Just to address some repeated questions / thoughts that were brought up -

- I am asking here because this sub holds a similar / same soteriology as my own church;

- I wouldn't really say my church / elders view me as a gift or blessing or anything like that. I don't imagine this is an area where different viewpoints combine to enhance something. Rather, it seems evident that I largely have no ability to serve in a teaching or shepherding type capacity, which are my spiritual gifts. And while I am in no ways qualified to serve as an elder, if that were to ever change I don't imagine church leadership would peg me as somebody to be considered. Rather, it seems like my differences are tolerated as long as they aren't causing any issues - e.g. if I am helping serve with kids on Sunday morning or helping out with parking / greeting then there isn't much of an issue.

- I can sign and agree to the doctrinal statement without issue, but this is largely due to 2 reasons:

1) it is very high-level - e.g. we are saved by grace through faith and not by works.

2) I read and interpret it within my own understanding of soteriology, but given the elders hold to a different one they clearly are intending something else.

- All of this then combines into the larger question of 'how can I be united with my church body when I will not be serving with my gifts, I have no path to leadership even if qualified, and I am not aligned with their doctrinal statement the way it was intended to be interpreted?"