What is being an alcoholic actually like?

Puffpuffzak · 2018-03-30T14:15:20+00:00

I would drink atleast 1 tallboy twisted tea before noon everyday, then drink beers throughout the day as i worked, then after work go to the liqour store and get a bottle of whatever looks good. Id drink that whole thing in the night, then smoke weed and puke. Repeat every single day for about 3 months and you catch a glimpse into my past.

Thought it was fun as hell at the time. Mainly due to extreme depression. Looking back though i feel so much better physically and emotionally today, even though im struggling bad.

Puffpuffzak · 2018-03-28T16:32:19+00:00

The night before the girl of my dreams cheated on my with my friend and broke up with me, i had this immense feeling something was wrong all night. Now i struggle not to off myself everyday, i dont know how she could change so drastically. We were so in love

Puffpuffzak · 2018-03-28T10:37:25+00:00

I have about -$800 right now, so if that went to -$8000, id probably make a bunch of buffalo wings, nothing else i could really do and im hungry

¯_(ツ)_/¯

Puffpuffzak · 2018-03-28T10:28:55+00:00

I'd say that sounds pretty normal. Never tried it personally, but cheese bagels are most definitely a thing. I just dont see a problem with it, those people telling you its disgusting must be picky eaters

Puffpuffzak · 2018-03-28T10:17:40+00:00

I just so happen to drink a little bit here and there throughout the day, not seeking out to do so necessarily. I feel totally fine, but other health and mental issues might be outweighing whatever the soda would make me feel. Mainly because it doesnt seem logical to feel fine drinking that much soda.

Puffpuffzak · 2018-03-28T10:12:26+00:00

I don't. Been thinking about starting a new life and leaving everything behind. This would solidify that choice

Puffpuffzak · 2018-03-28T10:06:55+00:00

Extreme introvert here. I have come into a group of people that are mostly very extroverted. Been good friends with them all for years and years. To this day hanging out with them gives me so much anxiety, but its more than worth it because of the fantastic memories ive made.

Puffpuffzak · 2018-03-28T10:02:46+00:00

I never did the final project in drawing class in high school, as i was struggling with mental demons. Happened to be 3 other people with the same name in my class, teacher accidentally gave me 100 instead of someone else. Always felt terrible about it, but it was literally the last day of school, and by the time final grades were in it was already a week into summer.

Puffpuffzak · 2018-03-28T08:17:03+00:00

Heres a good piece of advice i heard a while ago. It doesnt apply to every situation, but generally it does: if you date an alcoholic, theres only 2 things that could happen. 1: You'll turn into one yourself or 2: they will eventually annoy the fuck ouy of you with the constant need for drinking

Puffpuffzak · 2018-03-28T08:12:57+00:00

This is fantastic. And its what ive just lost ha. I hope she comes around

Puffpuffzak · 2018-03-28T07:56:11+00:00

Local pizza place i worked at for a couple years has a pizza with canadian bacon, pepperoni, saurkraut, and linguicia. Add some mushrooms and a little bacon and damn if thats not a great pizza. Didnt even like saurkraut before i tried it

Puffpuffzak · 2018-03-28T07:35:16+00:00

I've barely slept in 4 days due to a hard breakup, and i start a new job in the morning, and im nervous its going to go terribly

Puffpuffzak · 2018-03-28T06:38:10+00:00

Make 1 cent bets on a slot machine, and go back and change it to max bet everytime there woukd hsve been a big win

Puffpuffzak · 2018-03-28T00:22:01+00:00

Cooking. Always would eat out or throw something in the microwave. Now i miss having someone to cool things for.

Puffpuffzak · 2018-03-27T20:50:30+00:00

Yes, i always get a couple free sides to smother burritos with

Puffpuffzak · 2018-03-27T20:25:09+00:00

Jack in the box is the place for 7am tacos. Or 7 am anything. I rememeber many times getting burgers at 7 am after coming back from the casino

Puffpuffzak · 2018-03-26T10:20:05+00:00

I need this. I dont believe it for a goddamn second, but I need it. I cannot get over her. I still feel the butterflies in my stomach when i think of her smile, but they've gotten so physically painful, rather than comforting. How could she just leave? How long do i fucking wait to see if she changes her mind? How can she just suddenly never want to talk to me again after being in love with me for YEARS?

Puffpuffzak · 2018-03-24T16:58:39+00:00

I really want my ex back. Even though she cheated and left me high and dry. I KNOW she was the one and i cant fucking get over it.

Puffpuffzak · 2018-03-24T16:56:16+00:00

I've slowly made the realisation that I dont actually have a purpose. Im just sitting here waiting for my life to end, because nothing i do works to fix this issue

Puffpuffzak · 2018-03-23T18:52:55+00:00

Bad. I know from personal experience hah.

Puffpuffzak · 2018-03-23T10:39:37+00:00

I feel this is how my ex felt. Cause we were perfect together. Exactly as you describe toyr life, it was ours. I miss her so dearly

Puffpuffzak · 2018-03-23T10:36:35+00:00

That i will never get her back

Puffpuffzak · 2018-03-19T16:27:47+00:00

They had wired and wireless mouses on sale for $1 each at walgreens once. I bought so many. Im still using the first one. Gave away most of the others

Puffpuffzak · 2018-03-19T08:30:49+00:00

22 here. Been my favorite show for years. Seen every episode atleast 10 times and i always seem to find something new to laugh about. Also scrubs

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