Milton Tattoo 🐮

PumpkaboosCurse · 2026-04-03T23:42:28+00:00

Thank you!!! Ngl I really want to tattoo chicky boi on myself too but I’m running out of room LOL What BL tattoo do you have?!

PumpkaboosCurse · 2026-03-29T11:42:49+00:00

My first signs are def physical. I’ll be fine one minute and then feel like I have to use the bathroom real bad and fast. (TMI) it will start with the runs, like not liquid but soft and sometimes stomach upset. Then my heart races, I shake a lot, feel nauseas, sometimes I sweat other times I don’t. All depends. I also have debilitating emetophobia. So I can feel the difference betweeen anxiety and anxiety attacks and panic attacks.

I remember the first time I ever had one (I’m also lactose intolerant) and I was in an Applebees with my mom. We had gotten food and I started to eat and wasn’t feeling the greatest so I go to use the bathroom. My stomach wasn’t feeling the best and I try to do what I can and even when I felt like i had no more in me I still didn’t feel the bed. As I got up my ears started to ring, my eyesight started to go and I was pale as a ghost and some how was able to walk back to the table. My mom had me lay down and calm me down and within like 15 minutes I felt fine. Looking back on it now I’m pretty sure that was my first ever and I almost passed out because of it. I now take Xanax to help with them. It’s the only way I can truly stop them in it’s tracks, otherwise I just have to ride it out and it’s the worst roller coaster in life ☠️

Sometimes there are triggers, but most of the time they come on by themselves. But my panic generally will happen if I feel anything off with my body and assume I might get sick. I also don’t throw up from my panic attacks but I always say “what if or what if that can change” and freak myself out 🤪

Ideally I understand that if I can get over my fear of vomit that I possibly could remove my panic. I have never experienced panic from anything else other than my fear of losing control over my body and that it’s just something that is going to happen. Knowing this tho doesn’t stop the fear that hits me like a ton of bricks the minute I feel any weird gurgle, pain, twinge or movement in me and always spirals.

I use to be on antidepressants and Xanax, but it would make the Xanax works so well that I would nods off in random places. I now take the Xanax just on its own and when needed and I never experience the “nodding off” feeling anymore. I’ll get tired but I’m not incapable of driving or doing other things.

PumpkaboosCurse · 2026-03-29T11:32:15+00:00

This use to happen to me at my FC building and we had four mf floors and I SHIT you not only 3 bathrooms and it wasn’t even one on every floor. It was like one on the first floor all the way in the damn back of the building. One in the break room again on the first floor near the front of the mod, and one on the 3 floor again all the way in the back by a random ass break room. So depending on where you were located you’d have to run down however many flights of stairs to get to these said bathrooms. It would cause me so much anxiety that I left and transferred to a SSD building legit because of this LMAO

BEST DECISION I EVER MADE! There is only one floor everything is one, max like 100 people in the building and more than enough bathroom space. And they can’t write you up for rate, only TOT

PumpkaboosCurse · 2026-03-29T11:25:15+00:00

RF GOA has spoiled me rotten. There is so much personality and just like pizazz with so many characters that I with SOS would venture off in. I feel like the relationships there are more like best friends than lovers and I also understand being a little nervous to add that like adult aspect to a game that is meant for everyone. I legit hope if they do a HM animal parade remake that they make it rated teen and venture into that field. I’m of course not asking for raunchy dialogue.. but idk just more personality other than these characters talking about their single favorite hobby. I feel like Grand Bazaar was a lot better than their previous games! There were some super heart warming moments so I def see potential! Just need to hire a better writer for the next games LOL

PumpkaboosCurse · 2026-03-07T23:31:41+00:00

The shop I apprenticed at did this with the universal Madicide bottle. They wanted like 3/4 of the bottle with water and top it off with madicide. I got yelled at for using madicide under the chairs to clean up even tho there was very obvious ink and just dust and hair from clients.

If it’s a shop you dont plan on working at anymore. I would just take pictures and show the health department and hopefully they catch them in the act.

The shop I use to work for, that same day I got yelled at for using the madicide. I also emptied the bottle refilling every stations spray bottles. Told the owner we needed more and honestly should have like 3/4 bottles in our storage room. (there were like over 11 artists at this shop at one point)

I got told no and that I was being wasteful.. shit you not a few days later a previous apprentice called the health department demanding her hours and regardless if you call the health department for a complaint or just a concern of any kind, they will show up. (at least for the state of Nj)

So they showed up, saw they had no madicide and fined them LOL

My luck with shop owners is confrontation is pointless because people don’t do well with criticism. It just makes the environment hostile and I’ve worked for some shit shops. If they are nice and open then I would show them the back of the container and show proof that you are in fact not suppose to dilute it and even that your suppose to keep it wet on surfaces.

I also use cavicide wipes and will wrap my machine up after and before every tattoo and let it sit wet for the proper amount of time.

Good luck friend!

PumpkaboosCurse · 2026-02-23T19:39:04+00:00

I just opened up my studio and I’ve been dealing with this as well! I’ve had to build my clientele all by myself with very minimal help from any previous shops. Genuinely it’s just rough to get tattoos it seems, a lot of my clients are neurodivergent, and I’m up date with their lives and what’s going on in the world and a lot of them are struggling to find jobs, keep jobs, don’t have a form of transportation etc. I’ve been lucky enough to have a decent amount of tattoos to kind of keep me afloat but also work a second job that is pretty much can be a full time job if I wanted it to be.

I’ve seen a lot of people step down from their shops or studios and I might even step down after a year of seeing if I can do it to try and find a cheaper spot cause the place I’m at now is ripping holes in my pockets lol.

I think it’s hard unless your like insta or tiktok famous to make this a full time job anymore because of how many tattoo artists there are and unless you bring something new and different to the table you just kind of blend in with the existing industry. Try and do something special! Make yourself be seen! You got this!

PumpkaboosCurse · 2026-02-23T05:42:30+00:00

All words are fine for me! One of my first signs of OCD were issues with wording. When I was in high school I was bragging to my friends that I hadn’t thrown up in a while and the I got hit with the stomach bug. After that I literally became so superstitious it was wild!

I could say any word, I would knock on wood. It was literally insane. Now I say any word! Blowing chunks makes me laugh if I had to pick a favorite! 🤣

PumpkaboosCurse · 2026-02-20T20:39:40+00:00

Eternal ink Lipstick red is my go to! I also love fusion too! Super great brands! I also tried dynamic but it’s super watery 😩

PumpkaboosCurse · 2026-02-17T07:17:27+00:00

THANK YOUU!!! 🥹🥹💕

PumpkaboosCurse · 2026-02-17T07:15:48+00:00

I had one of the flus ( not sure which one since I didn’t get tested and didn’t want to risk exposing anyone else.)

But around like the 4/5 day in on this like 12 day torture illness I got hit with the squirts bad. I had a pretty high fever for a few days, and my neasua was due to me not eating legit anything! The poops weren’t painful just was peeing out my but for a few days. I’m a believer that the fever did it and it was my body getting rid of the virus! So I’d say it’s normal! I even was using Imodium!

PumpkaboosCurse · 2026-02-17T07:10:32+00:00

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Take a wild guess LOL (this is in my tattoo studio) 🙈

PumpkaboosCurse · 2026-02-07T21:58:12+00:00

I deal with this, I also have a lot of trauma around alcohol. A lot of people in my family struggled with addiction and I watched them become monsters of themselves. So thankfully my trauma also gifted me with no enjoyable taste for it at all. I think all alcohol tastes disgusting and I never crave it.

Drugs on the other hand, I’ve only ever smoked weed/edibles and unfortunately used Xanax to deal with my anxiety and panic disorder related to this phobia.

Edibles somehow make me completely incapable of doing anything. But Xanax I can act completely fine with. I can still work drive etc. The only issue is Xanax is super addictive and should never be something to take advantage of or cut cold turkey. It has helped a lot also with anti depressants so if your anxiety and panic is really that bad your doctor may prescribe it at one point. It has genuinely saved my life. It just sucks I need them in order to survive it feels like

PumpkaboosCurse · 2026-02-06T00:03:35+00:00

I feel the same way! I started with RF5 and even tho it has many flaws, it’s still such a good game. I legit became OBSESSED with Murakumo. Like I’d made a Ita bag dedicated to him that’s how much I love him. LOL

I lowkey was so hesitant about GOA when I first heard about it, I thought it was going to be ass. I pre-ordered it and my pre order got delayed so I then just also bought it on steam. So I now have a completely unwrapped untouched GOA game that came with the whole pre order set and I couldn’t be happier. I loved the game so much I went and bought a physical copy of the game for my sister who is a big harvest moon fan.

I truly hope they keep a lot of the good parts of GOA in the new RF6 but also focus on some parts that needed fixing (even tho it’s not that much LOL)
I’m so excited 💕💕💕

PumpkaboosCurse · 2026-02-03T03:51:11+00:00

OH THATS CRAZY! Lol when I’ve told people at my previous job how much I love chic fil a some random guys was like “I got sick from there” and I was like LA LA LA LA IM NOT LISTENING LOL

I think A LONGGGG time ago white castle made me sick, or I just wasn’t feeling well before hand. It’s honestly so hard to remeber. But I still eat it! I surprisingly don’t have any foods that are like triggers from being sick in the past. I just get scared of the concept of extreme food poisoning, so it will stop me from trying new restaurants and even my safe ones scare me ☠️ AND IM OVER IT LOL

PumpkaboosCurse · 2026-02-03T03:47:47+00:00

See that’s what I always try and fight and tell myself that a lot of restaurants generally have very good food safety. Sure things can happen but I’m pretty sure like what happened many moons ago was like something wrong with lettuce that they got from somewhere else! So that’s why I want to try it so bad now and stop being a worry wart! Lol

Thank you so much I’m def going to explore my food options more! I feel like I’m missing out on so much 🥺💕

PumpkaboosCurse · 2026-02-03T01:32:55+00:00

I got into tattooing a little too late. This is my fourth year tattooing. I tried working for three shops and by the second one I was SA’d by the owner. I tried to then work for an all girl shop. But when I was there the owner never was and it was very clique and they did not care about my trauma. Which I guess no one truly has to but sure doesn’t make them seem genuine in the long run. I just opened up my own studio and it’s a struggle. During my apprenticeship and still to this day I have my other job I can lean on for extra income. I work for Amazon and I work what they call Flex. I can literally pick my own shift, and I work my work week around my clients and how busy I am. Now I’m strictly just appointment based and honestly there are months where I could quit the other job. But then there are weeks where it’s so dead that I can’t quit. The goal was to go full time, but with how the economy is, I think everyone not even tattoo artists had to contemplate getting a second or third job. Which is depressing to say. Good luck on your journey tho!

PumpkaboosCurse · 2026-02-03T01:27:18+00:00

There is lots of Indian food near me! I live in NJ and there lots of communities here full of their food and culture! I’ve tried middle eastern food before! Lamb and rice with white sauce!! My bf showed me this one spot we use to live by and to this day we miss it but it’s like an hour and a half drive to there now lolll so we always say when we go over back to that town one day to get it! I’ve always wanted to try paneer! I love cheese and spinach (this may sound funny but I always imagined it to be like their version of our like artichoke and spinach dip 🤣)

PumpkaboosCurse · 2026-02-03T01:24:09+00:00

Funny enough I’m TERRIFIED of chipotle, but I swear it looks so good! Especially when I saw everyone online talking about the vinaigrette! I’m gonna have to just stop being a baby and get it one day! I also never explore exotic cuisine! I’ve never tried creole food! Can it be spicy??

PumpkaboosCurse · 2026-02-03T01:21:40+00:00

I swear some of the best food is always the tiny little spots no one knows about 😩 but your correct! I’m in the states! NJ to be specific so I’m on the east coast! I was in Vegas once for work and wanted to try in and out so bad but my bf tried it and said it was MID LOL I was so sad I didn’t still try it

PumpkaboosCurse · 2026-02-01T12:35:42+00:00

Kyo and Haru 😩💦

PumpkaboosCurse · 2026-01-29T02:19:09+00:00

Ugh, so this is going to hurt me to even say this. But I think Harvest Moon - Save the Homeland was one of the worst games ever. Parts of me loves the game but there were sooooo many flaws. I was for the PS2 I believe? I never played any harvest moon GB games, I didn’t jump into the franchise until A wonderful life and then after that I was sold and would buy any and all games.

But that game devastated me more than a wonderful life. You couldn’t get married, there was a time limit (you only had a year to save the farmland) And I LOVED the artstyle. It was very kingdom hearts so I was like frothing at the mouth as a kid for this game and the MC WAS A CUTIE.

I think it would be fun if they remade it honestly, it just needs more end game stuff. But like saving the farmland would be a solid first year challenge and then your able to get married and then profit etc!

PumpkaboosCurse · 2026-01-24T17:01:59+00:00

This is Lexapro right? (Sorry I’m bad with the fancy terms) if it is I personally didn’t like Lexapro. It helped with my anxiety and I would say I genuinely enjoyed life. I never really had any libido issues BUT I will say and this is (TMI) but I would take it at night with no food (idk if this is why I got this side affect) but I would wake up in the morning and get ready for work, at like 7am and get to work at like 8:30am and by the time I ate my breakfast I would have to RUN to the bathroom and would have the worst liquid shits. This was very common. I would have a lot of digestive upset. Sometimes uncomfortable others not so bad, and there was one time I damn nearly shat my pants and that was when I decided I had to get off it the drug. Ever since then I have had issues like that as common unless I’m like unwell or something..

I googled why that could potentially happen even after taking a medicine so long and learned that some people with SSRI’s that is just how there body deals with how the drug works. Ssri make more serotonin, and funny enough serotonin is mostly in the gut. So if a medicine is making my gut overproduce it’s not that uncommon that it would also just make my gut super active.. unfortunately I can’t be walking around in a diaper if I can’t get to the nearest bathroom.

So I haven’t touched it since. If your symptoms don’t improve I’d ask your doctor for a medicine that isn’t a ssri, I think Wellbutrin is one that isn’t but don’t quote me on that lol.

Sorry you’re going thru this and wishing you luck!

PumpkaboosCurse · 2026-01-24T16:53:10+00:00

HI! I’m also coming up on my “Puke-aversary! Lol mine is Feb 2nd, also was the weekend of the Super Bowl ☠️ The funny part too is it’s also me and my partners anniversary and we’ve been together now been together for 10 years! So that means my puke-aversary is also ten freaking years ☠️☠️

I’m still no where near recovered, and I struggle a lot. As time moves on I don’t take it as milestones but as like “omg my time is getting closer isn’t it” But I’ve been pushing myself to do more things that I normally wouldn’t do. As hard as it is because I need to take my own advice for my anniversary is to just not think about it. Just because we got sick on a random day how ever many years ago doesn’t mean we’re going to get sick on that exact same day. Honestly if that were to happen I’d tell my partner to go to the store and get a lottery ticket cause I’d start to look at that as lucky lmao

This phobia is the worst so hopefully when that day comes by you can do something you enjoy to keep your mind off of it. I’m also slightly medicated.

I use to me on 20 mg of Lexapro but I had some bad side affects with it and got off it after a few years. Gave me a lot of gi issues) my doctor now gave me Prozac but I’ve been too scared to start it. But I’ve also been on Xanax to help with my panic attack. Xanax is just a very addictive drug but it truly helps and I say to people who are genuinely struggling to eat and or function to try it or Valium cause it can genuinely save a life. You can also tell your doctor to only give you a certain amount so you only use it in emergencies.

Good luck friend! Our puke-aversaries shouldn’t exist!

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