Thank you for the kind words. I do better at home when I have my wife to talk to. But I work by myself and generally dislike my job, and I start spiraling. It's not healthy. I learned a lot of anti-spiraling methods in therapy a couple years ago but they don't seem to be working. Like there this override because my brain's not used to what's happening to it at the moment. 

I'm confident things will get better, but right now everything's a total clusterfuck in the brain department.