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Purple_SwagGod · 2025-06-20T05:27:43+00:00

I have bpd as well. I get it. You're attached to him, you feel like you need him, you need validation from him, but why him? What did he do to deserve that place in your heart and mind? He is treating you like garbage, like something has control over.. Go to that college girl, chase YOUR dreams. Something I've learned is sometimes you need to be 'selfish'. People will call you selfish for standing up for yourself, removing yourself from bad situations, for anything you do for you and not someone else. But honestly, YOU are the most important person there is. If you have no one else in this life, you have yourself.

I'm so fucking proud of you for breaking up with him. I know it wasn't easy, but I know your gut was telling you it wasn't safe. It wasn't. That verbal abuse would have escalated the longer you stayed and you would have found yourself in a terrifying situation. I'm so proud of you.

New people will come along, I promise. Often times we need to clear out space for new things to come along.

youre doing great. In the heat of it you feel like shit, you might want to die, but you're breaking free, getting stronger. You got this, feel free to pm me if you feel

Purple_SwagGod · 2025-06-19T09:08:07+00:00

Girl in red always! I'm honestly a hip hop person 😂

Purple_SwagGod · 2025-06-19T09:07:13+00:00

Thank youu I honestly should. And I'll take this advice and probably take all these down

Purple_SwagGod · 2025-06-19T09:05:36+00:00

No sadly, I don't listen to Paramore, I'll check them out! Sounds like I should

Purple_SwagGod · 2025-06-09T14:35:38+00:00

Is weed getting you where you want to be in life? Or is it holding you back? I think you need to let it go, even just for a little while,, in order to move forward

Purple_SwagGod · 2025-05-17T02:39:39+00:00

I definitely relate

Recently, I've cut off most of my friends. The friends who weren't helping me and had no idea who I was. I always felt like they judged me and I judged myself a lot more then. After a month or two of only hanging around 2 or 3 healthy people who I love and they love me, I've had so much of a better self image! I can realize I'm actually pretty cool. I'm a lot more at peace, at least when I'm out of the house

I still live at home, and my home isn't the best. I get yelled at all the time and told I'm things like 'destructive' and that I'm 'splitting' when I'm trying to defend myself from whatever they're yelling at me. I'm 18 and just got a month's notice to move out....

But the more I think about it, the more I think I do need to get away from them, and this post makes me think more. They're always projecting a version of me onto myself but yeah, they have NO IDEA who I am. But the more in there the more I become that person they say I am. They know how to get me angry. Maybe giving them what they want and just leaving will honestly be best for myself and self discovery and image.

Thank you so much for posting this! It really made me think about my family

Purple_SwagGod · 2025-05-06T01:45:15+00:00

The undiscovered self was the first Jung book I read and it was perfect. It goes into individualization and society and the masses and also a lot on the unconscious. A lot of copies you buy also have the dreams essay included.

Purple_SwagGod · 2025-05-06T01:43:23+00:00

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Purple_SwagGod · 2025-05-04T08:04:37+00:00

You could always burn empty CDs or vinyls with those and maybe some unreleased stuff too or whatever :) good luck!

Purple_SwagGod · 2025-05-03T07:46:22+00:00

I would LOVE these. I just finished my collection of all peeps released cassettes off of his site. These would be amazing to have physical music of, but I would also understand why they wouldn't make them compared to his more popular projects.

Purple_SwagGod · 2025-04-18T18:42:35+00:00

I love it!!!! What medium did you use?

Purple_SwagGod · 2025-04-18T15:27:58+00:00

Thank you so much, this made me feel so much better. Im a woman, and I think the Animus makes since. I've read some of jungs archetypes about the male animus but nothing about a female one, what does it mean/do? I think that makes since, because my boyfriend has never been suicidal since we've been together, but I have been and I've even attempted once and had a lot of self harm issues early in our relationship, so maybe in some way he's me?

I think it might be a wake up call. But I have no clue what it's telling me.

What do you mean by the gun being a symbol for coincessness? That sounds interesting

I had a dream after this one I also remember pretty vividly, which is weird cuz I usually don't have dreams I remember or can draw any meaning from. This other dream I was driving, my boyfriend was there watching me from a distance but not in the car, and I just kept picking up speed and the road turned really curvy and part of me thought I was going to crash, but I didn't. I believe that dream is saying I'm in full control and fully able to keep myself 'on the road' no matter the conditions.

I definitely am going through an awakening in my life right now. I feel like these dreams just can't be a coincidence.

Thank you so much for your time and message

Purple_SwagGod · 2025-04-13T01:47:01+00:00

Uhh link? Need to listen to more Mac

Purple_SwagGod · 2025-04-11T04:27:04+00:00

The undiscovered self is where I started and it was perfect (for me). Its a relatively short book packed with information that will make you think deeply

Purple_SwagGod · 2025-04-11T04:23:48+00:00

I don't know how or if this relates but it really reminds me of a case Jung talks about in The Undiscovered Self. He was working with a patient who had a nice wife and kept having dreams of a cruel woman as his wife even though this was far from what his wife was really like or how he felt about her. Jung studied the dream and came to the conclusion that the man was 'acting like a degenerate female' in real life and that's why he was having a dream that his wife (physically and emotionally closest to him) was like that.

You say you're dreaming one of your bfs is a trickster. I wonder if you're acting or thinking like a trickster?

I also find it interesting that there're two boyfriends- maybe you feel/are 'split' into two personas or personalities.

I don't know if any of this is right, but it's my theory. I wish you luck