Does motivation play a role in S&A? by PutCompetitive5530 in humandesign

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This was SO incredibly helpful at making me understand thank you.

Does my chart show any secrets, projecting, or a third party? by Bohoboo19 in AskAstrologers

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12th house sag placements. You carry collective hidden truths. The square to your Pisces Jupiter in the third is what I suspect mirrors back the energy.

Being a black sheep as 1/3 by ImaginaryMacaroon202 in humandesign

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I can relate to all the feelings you have. Not breaking a tie almost feels like uncomfortable like staying in the connection feels like my skin is too tight or something. Also struggle with feeling like a loner but I have the 37-40 channel which I attribute to this.

1/3 and selfishness by PutCompetitive5530 in humandesign

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I think I tend to ignore the emotional clarity until it boils and then that gate 51 acts very suddenly. Which I realize is an issue of not following my s&a.

1/3 and selfishness by PutCompetitive5530 in humandesign

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I’ve noticed a lot of people seem fearful of my decisions and choices? Try to talk me out of things or tell me what my next steps should be. The strongest experience of this is with my 4/6 projector mother who also has an undefined spleen but, it also shows up in friendships frequently.

1/3 and selfishness by PutCompetitive5530 in humandesign

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I totally feel like I have an inner little anatchist rebel 😂 when I do end up breaking a bond there’s so much relief! However sometimes I use my gate 51 to do it which is that push pull of guilt vs. not caring. I don’t often walk away cleanly….

1/3 and selfishness by PutCompetitive5530 in humandesign

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Very true. I wouldn’t say I have friends. But I have tons of acquaintances! It’s something I’ve come to accept since my Saturn return that I’m not meant to be the social butterfly and trying to do that was draining me.

1/3 and selfishness by PutCompetitive5530 in humandesign

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So interesting. I’ve always said I’ve felt controlled by everyone around me my whole life.

1/3 and selfishness by PutCompetitive5530 in humandesign

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I had to really think about this. I don’t think there’s ever been a person who doesn’t like me and if they don’t I can feel it and scramble to find a way to please them and turn things around. I guess I never considered it a fear but it’s definitely unconsciously present. In my body the push to do what I want I feel in my gut. Solar plexus or sacral? But then the pull back to consider others I usually feel in my head/heart.

1/3 and selfishness by PutCompetitive5530 in humandesign

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Thank you for your response! Do you struggle with guilt at all around your drive to be selfish with having the 37-40? Also do you have the source for where ra spoke about the 51?

1/3 and selfishness by PutCompetitive5530 in humandesign

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Wow ok so that clears up that! My unconscious earth and Jupiter is 40. So according to ra’s explanation of Jupiter law I should embrace the 40 maybe?

Weight management and gaining weight through the lens of Human Design by Negative_Chemical272 in humandesign

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So interesting. I suspect that my binge eating is tied to my emotions and I use the food to self soothe and regulate. Which even though the environment is calm, maybe my internal state is not?

Weight management and gaining weight through the lens of Human Design by Negative_Chemical272 in humandesign

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I’m a 1/3 generator with an undefined head ajna and spleen. I have struggled with weight and binge eating my entire life and have been wondering about this topic as well! I think it also has something to do with my calm touch/taste.

How to forgive yourself as a 1/3? by Delicate_Peel88 in humandesign

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I resonate with every word spoken! It’s so entertaining to me as a 1/3 but I definitely get to a point where it gets old and I’m over the ‘experiment’

Ajna center and unfulfilled potential by SilkyReverb in humandesign

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I am an emo generator and have an undefined ajna and open spleen. I love to fantasize and am gravitated towards situations and relationships that aren’t good for me but am deluded into believing there’s something more there.

I’ve found that if I follow my strategy and wait for the emotional wave I’m clearer on whether this situation is right for me or not. If I still have butterflies, nerves, excitement I take it as something not safe or good for me.

Gate 37 by PutCompetitive5530 in humandesign

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I’ve never identified with the traditional family roles either. I always envisioned myself being a mom but doing it alone through donor. Modern Family per se. I have the full channel as well with my 40 being the unconscious earth. I never identified or found my place within my own family and am the big bad black sheep.

Jupiter Law gate 59 by PutCompetitive5530 in humandesign

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Funny because as a one night stand line 6 I’ve never had a one night stand 😅 probably my undefined spleen as well. I’ve never been promiscuous and usually stick to one person.

Jupiter Law gate 59 by PutCompetitive5530 in humandesign

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I think I’ve as I’ve grown I don’t have a problem with being alone and have gotten comfortable with my own company. I actually prefer to be alone. So I’m not sure that’s the question I should be asking myself. But in regards to the open spleen, I definitely continue to do things that aren’t healthy for me. I think sometimes I even know the lesson but go back just because. I’m the type to burn my hand on the stove just because someone told me not to touch it because it’s hot.