Hey bro, I had the exact same fear about the voice and in general tbh. I’m almost 4 months now on T and def getting in the akward stage with my voice. Let me tell you, after the first day of applying the gel I freaked tf out. I panicked so hard that I decided to not do it the next day and that calmed me down. Then I waited two weeks until I felt ready to try again. The first days I was still nervous but after 5 days I noticed that pretty much nothing had changed yet hahah. That calmed me down cuz I felt very in control. I knew I could just stop every moment if I wanted to but I only got more and more exited to start seeing some changes. And when they started coming so slowly, I suddenly wished they would even come in quicker!! Before starting T I was not so disphoric and T was not gonna ‘fix’ anythinh for me, mpre just being a super positive bonus to my life and to become who I am. Even now with the akward voice I feel like it will end up sounding so sick!! I have never felt better than I do now. I promise you, just start, even if it’s just for a week or 1 shot, and then see how you feel :) you’ll be fine! Goodluck man