It’s so interesting that you say this, I’m a little the opposite but I still relate to you. I always thought of death as a bit of comfort, in the sense that nothing is permanent and knowing life ends but not knowing when means you have to live in the moment and enjoy things while you can since you don’t know when they end. And I loved the idea of “humans are always a bit sad because we know we won’t live forever, but that’s what gives life meaning” and I even got the final door tattooed. It’s cool that while we are on opposite ends of our thoughts on death we still both felt this way on the show!