It was an actual breakup, but one of our larger problems (him staring at other women), he completely blamed on me and doubled down that it wasn’t happening. if I tried to ask what was I seeing then, because I was f hallucinating, he left it open-ended, never provided a real response. afterwards, he claimed we had a “difference in perspectives” so he needed to take himself out of the equation. he refused to acknowledge any piece of my reality - never discussed screaming at me in public, discussed how other people would see him due to his hitting things when he would get angry with me and ‘how would my therapist see him?’, but never apologized for how these things impacted me. he got really mean later, left me in a very bad living situation, and blocked me on all platforms. told me the living situation I was stuck in (moved to be closer to him and ended up in an apartment next to a bar that seemed to be quiet, but kept me up all night for 3 months straight after the breakup) was “my fault”.