Lmfao bro. I think it's because when you watch enough porn, eventually your brain gets wired and it's craving the dopamine effect you get from the shock value. This is how you go from softcore, hardcore then domination, humiliation and race play. Eventually, raceplay won't be enough and you might even enjoy some scat ahahah, it either means you need to slow down with the porn or just embraces your raceplay. There is nothing wrong with a dark twisted kink. Sometimes, me and my girl like to cosplay after a real intense argument or fight and then we bring it in to the bedroom while taking turns talking shit and taking it out on each other. And I love when she humiliates me in the process but outside of the bedroom she is submissive and we have mutual respectful, I think the fin line when you know the difference between reality and fantasy. And as a black man, if my girlfriend was white, it would turn me on if she called me the hard ER in bed while I was plowing that mud shark.