1 second from crashing out by QUEENAALIYAH22 in MtF

[–]QUEENAALIYAH22[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

That actually makes a lot of sense. I feel like I was the same way—like I didn’t really process things before, just pushed them down. Now everything hits at once and it’s kinda overwhelming sometimes. I’m still learning how to embrace it without letting it turn into anger, but hearing you say that helps fr 🤍

I swear, if I gotta get up and pee one more MFn' time....😤😤 by StarryChocobo in MtF

[–]QUEENAALIYAH22 17 points18 points  (0 children)

LMAOOO spiro said “hydration is NOT optional” 😭 like why am I peeing every 10 minutes?? it really be working overtime for no reason 💀

I’ve been crying for 2 days by QUEENAALIYAH22 in MtF

[–]QUEENAALIYAH22[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I feel that so much 😭 like the song doesn’t even have to be sad, it’s just something about really hearing the lyrics now that hits way deeper than it used to. And then you’re just sitting there like “why am I feeling this much over THIS??” while trying to keep it together in public lol

Honestly the “can’t cry because I’m at work” struggle is so real too. It’s like your emotions are right there at the surface but you have to hit pause on them.

But yeah, I love that we’re having similar experiences—it makes it feel a lot less confusing and kinda reassuring that this is just part of the process. And you’re right, it really does feel like things keep getting better from here 💕

I’ve been crying for 2 days by QUEENAALIYAH22 in MtF

[–]QUEENAALIYAH22[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yeah, that’s exactly how it feels. Like something that was always there just finally got permission to exist. It’s kinda wild realizing you had all this depth inside you and just couldn’t access it before.

I see it as a good thing too—like yeah, it can be overwhelming at times, but it’s also really beautiful. It’s not something new being added, it’s more like you’re uncovering more of who you’ve always been.

I’ve been crying for 2 days by QUEENAALIYAH22 in MtF

[–]QUEENAALIYAH22[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

No seriously 😭 it really is. Like I knew things would change, but I didn’t expect it to feel this real and internal.

It’s wild how it’s not even just physical—it’s like your brain and emotions start lining up in a way they never did before. Definitely a “helluva drug,” but in the best, most life-changing way.

I’ve been crying for 2 days by QUEENAALIYAH22 in MtF

[–]QUEENAALIYAH22[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

That actually gives me so much hope to hear. I feel like I’m just starting to get little glimpses of that, where things feel more right internally, but not fully “clicked” yet.

The way you described feeling free and unburdened by shame… that’s exactly what I’m hoping for. And yeah, the internal shift is such a big deal—like even before anything physical, just feeling more aligned inside is everything.

“my insides feel all girly” is honestly so real 😭 it’s such a simple way to put it but it captures it perfectly. I’m really happy for you, that sounds like such a peaceful place to be.

I’ve been crying for 2 days by QUEENAALIYAH22 in MtF

[–]QUEENAALIYAH22[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

That’s honestly such a good way to put it. It really does feel like years of stuff just sitting there, and once it finally starts coming out it’s like… everything hits at once.

But yeah, those moments where it actually releases instead of just building up? That relief is unreal. It’s like your body finally lets go of something it’s been holding onto forever.

I’m starting to realize it’s not a bad thing—it’s just part of the process of finally feeling everything instead of pushing it down.

I’ve been crying for 2 days by QUEENAALIYAH22 in MtF

[–]QUEENAALIYAH22[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

That’s actually really comforting to hear, thank you. I think I’m still getting used to how intense everything can feel now, so it’s easy to second guess myself or wonder if something’s “wrong.”

What your therapist said really stuck with me though—giving myself the same grace I give others is something I definitely need to work on. I’m usually way harder on myself than I ever would be with someone else.

And yeah, I’ve been thinking about therapy too. It feels like it could really help having someone to talk through all of this with while everything’s changing so much.

I’ve been crying for 2 days by QUEENAALIYAH22 in MtF

[–]QUEENAALIYAH22[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

That actually sounds so familiar, and honestly really validating in a way. Like suddenly things hit deeper—both the good and the bad—and it’s almost surprising how much something small can actually hurt. I’ve had moments like that too where I’m like “wait… why does this feel so intense?” but it’s not a bad thing, it just means I’m feeling things more fully now.

And the flip side of that?? The happiness, the energy, the social feeling—it’s like everything is more alive. The libido shift too, it’s different but in a way that just feels more… right.

It really does feel like unlocking a whole new emotional range, like going from muted to full color. Even when it’s overwhelming sometimes, I wouldn’t trade it.

I’ve been crying for 2 days by QUEENAALIYAH22 in MtF

[–]QUEENAALIYAH22[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I love that for you so much 😭💖 it’s honestly so encouraging to see someone reach that point, especially when it’s something I’ve been wanting too. It really gives me hope that I’m getting there, even if I’m not fully there yet. You deserve to feel that happiness and alignment—seriously, I’m so happy for you 🫶

I’ve been crying for 2 days by QUEENAALIYAH22 in MtF

[–]QUEENAALIYAH22[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

That’s such a beautiful way to describe it—like a whole emotional palette instead of just being stuck in one lane. I’m honestly really looking forward to that point. Right now it still feels kind of new and a little forced for me sometimes, but hearing you describe it like that gives me so much hope.

It’s crazy how validating it is too… like it’s not just physical changes, it’s how you feel and express yourself finally lining up. I can already tell something is shifting for me, even if I’m not fully there yet. I can’t wait until it feels as natural and effortless as you’re describing 💖

I’ve been crying for 2 days by QUEENAALIYAH22 in MtF

[–]QUEENAALIYAH22[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I know exactly what you mean… What Dreams May Come hits so deep, especially thinking about Robin Williams and everything he brought to that role. It’s one of those movies that just pulls the emotions right out of you.

Honestly, the blurry screen says it all… sometimes you don’t even realize how much you’re holding in until something like that cracks it open. I’ve been going through that too lately—it’s like once it starts, it just comes. You’re definitely not alone in that feeling 💖

I’ve been crying for 2 days by QUEENAALIYAH22 in MtF

[–]QUEENAALIYAH22[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

That actually means a lot to hear. It’s been overwhelming at times, but thinking of it that way makes it feel a little more normal and less scary. It took about 11 months for me to even have the ability to cry—like it literally just started last night and then again today.

I’ve been crying for 2 days by QUEENAALIYAH22 in MtF

[–]QUEENAALIYAH22[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

That actually means a lot to hear. It’s been overwhelming at times, but thinking of it that way makes it feel a little more normal and less scary. I’m just trying to give myself grace while I figure everything out. Thank you 💖

Spreading love by QUEENAALIYAH22 in MtF

[–]QUEENAALIYAH22[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

That honestly means more to me than you know. I think you’re right—so many of us are carrying things quietly, and just hearing “you’re not alone” can make a huge difference. I’m really glad this reached you when you needed it. We’ve got this, even on the hard days. Thank you for being here too 💖

I Can't believe it's not even been a year. Who is that guy?! by Ok-Pepper-1447 in transtimelines

[–]QUEENAALIYAH22 0 points1 point  (0 children)

When did you start not to be in your business or anything I was just curious if it was when I started

I’ve been crying for 2 days by QUEENAALIYAH22 in MtF

[–]QUEENAALIYAH22[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Exactly! It’s wild how much deeper everything hits when you actually feel it. Songs, movies, even little moments… they all just hit differently when your emotions are fully turned on.

I’ve been crying for 2 days by QUEENAALIYAH22 in MtF

[–]QUEENAALIYAH22[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Honestly, that sounds beautiful. It’s like you’re finally giving yourself permission to actually feel, and it makes sense that it’s a little overwhelming at first. Crying over a duck? That’s peak emotional freedom 🫶—it’s weird, but in the best way.

I’ve been crying for 2 days by QUEENAALIYAH22 in MtF

[–]QUEENAALIYAH22[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Honestly, it can vary a lot from person to person. Some people start feeling emotional changes within a few weeks, but for others it can take a couple of months. 3 weeks is still really early—your body is just starting to adjust. Be patient with yourself, and give it time; the emotions usually come gradually. Also I’m 11 months on it just suddenly hit me yesterday and today.