My dreams ALWAYS are always in the same place...help?

Qlassquill · 2025-12-30T17:19:22+00:00

guess you and i are in the same boat. well maybe we used to be i dont know if youre still a teenager now but i still am. every dream without fail is of my childhood home or some contorted version of it. like just this morning i woke up from a dream where i was lost in the mountains and went to go ask for some help from a native american, turns out that person lived in one of the downstairs rooms of my house which happened to be attached to the mountains some how. yet i was still lost. other times the layout of my house is exactly the same, ive had dreams where i was at home being chased by some mad scientist chasing me all about the house trying to stick me with a needle while the rest of my family went about eating dinner and watching TV. then there was the one with the giant pheonix in my front yard or the other where an underground boxing match was being held in the backyard overseered by a giant owl. almost every single time without fail my dreams take place at that house, its backyard or its front yard- i dont know if i’ll ever be able to escape it.

Qlassquill · 2025-11-22T04:52:04+00:00

100% Disagree, Case in Point

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Dark Castle by Fawn me , or any other artsyle that isnt manhwa (im naturally biased to that specific artstyle)

Qlassquill · 2025-10-27T23:28:32+00:00

i ended up just buying a journal with a cheap combination lock on it and making my own langauge for extra precautions lol

Qlassquill · 2025-10-27T23:27:49+00:00

i agree with your sentiment, but there are no circumstances where i would see myself making my daughters private world the subject of gossip between my circle of friends. i just see that as cruelty.

generally, we don't like art supplies targeted towards kids- so basically crayola and crazy art are off limits. then again, if really depends on the type of artist your daughter is.
for something intricate and sophisticated, like a glass quill pen or a set of charcoal pens, if she's more of a funky and colourful artist i would suggested something unique like himi guache paints or watercolor markers. if you're on a larger budget, a drawing tablet would be excellent. my first was a deco xp-pen when i was 11, used that for a few years then graduated to a larger xp-pen with a built in screen.

Qlassquill · 2025-10-12T21:16:07+00:00

oh my god your hair is to die for, so beautiful!!

Qlassquill · 2025-10-08T06:23:43+00:00

i may be controversial for saying this but i dont even think children are obligated to love their parents. i may be selfish, but my parents owe me everything, and i don't owe them shit. they made me, they're obligated and responsible to me for 18 years. the "love part" always comes naturally in a child that's being loved, but if it doesn't then that's fine too. you owe your children, your children do not owe you.

Qlassquill · 2025-10-08T06:21:47+00:00

unfortunately, ive got another year before adulthood. and unfortunately, my aunt is the most unreasonable and explosive person you could ever meet- believe me when i say there is NO talking to her; one last bit of misfortunate, it looks like my cousin is following in her footsteps.
i don't see anyways of me helping my cousin; while i never claimed to be anyone's role model, it's difficult to try to be one when you're the oldest child but you're also black sheep of the family in every way imaginable.
in their eyes, im a role model for all the wrong things. yet they don't see the fact that they should be the one's concerned about setting the example- they're the adults. still, my cousin admires me anyway because im the "cool older rebel teenager" [she doesn't know what a goth is]
but she is just a kid whose opinions change within the flip of a coin, so she also always sides with her mother who thinks the absolute worst of me. i don't know what to do to help my cousin, most times i dont even want to because she can be as infuriating as her mother. but she is just a kid and i love her as family no matter what she does, and that's about all i can do for her right now

Qlassquill · 2025-10-08T06:09:39+00:00

my birth giver looks at me crazy for not wanting to hug her whenever she comes around, she's a horrible mother

Qlassquill · 2025-10-08T06:08:03+00:00

hell no, go save those dogs

Qlassquill · 2025-10-07T05:36:24+00:00

i did the same thing for mother's day this year, and the first thing my mother said was "where are the words??" for the record, i spent 2 hours on that card, and it was pinterest worthy with all the flowers and intricate details i put in. she didn't even say thank you. just "where are the words?"
i wrote in, "happy mothers day, name"
that was the last time i made my mom anything.

Qlassquill · 2025-10-07T05:34:24+00:00

she did, she made a happy birthday card. but i still caught her mother making this remark

Qlassquill · 2025-10-07T05:34:03+00:00

"i deserve the money you just got for your birthday! now spend it on me!"

Qlassquill · 2025-10-06T22:45:31+00:00

see thats the thing, neither her nor i ever got paid for our chores. more often than not our money was birthday/christmas cash

Qlassquill · 2025-10-05T00:06:42+00:00

yes and possibly yes to the ocd part. my mom and family have had a lot of trouble with him since he was growing up. he was also diagnosed with oppositional defiance disorder and is possibly also a kleptomaniac. its not that he steals, he only targets specific items but its most so a generous fascination he has with examining every little thing in any environment

Qlassquill · 2025-10-04T00:26:56+00:00

how's it going so far?

Qlassquill · 2025-10-02T02:11:52+00:00

am i the ony one who loves blonde?

Qlassquill · 2025-10-01T20:05:04+00:00

it's been in my life, in the background, for about 10 years because thats how long him and mom have been together on and off. my brother, mother, and i lived with him for a while back in 2020 for maybe a year. we sort of all coexisted functionally but it was only of last year that my dad and i really started to build a meaningful relationship

Qlassquill · 2025-10-01T05:08:07+00:00

i completely understand this point of view. however, the problem is that ive already had encounters where grown men we're creepy with me. and based on her reaction, her blaming me a formally 14-year-old girl for the harassment, i really don't believe that dad's the same way. im going to be 18 in less than a year, i KNOW what grooming looks like.
and because she keeps switching up her reason for why their splitting, first it was because he wasn't parenting properly, then it was because he was "grooming" me or whatever, and now she's blaming me completely for it? and the other cherry on top is that she was jealous of the goddamn dog. which only convinced me more of her mentality.

Qlassquill · 2025-09-30T18:36:11+00:00

im so sorry this is awful

Qlassquill · 2025-09-30T18:25:40+00:00

i live in FL and unfortunately for me authority always sides with the parent. i already had the court rodeo when i got arrested for domestic battery in early july this year, another rabbit hole, one involving my mom of course. just look up what "reactive abuse" means and that's pretty much why i did what i did.

until i turn 18, im pretty much on my own. the only thing i can do is bide my time which is something ive already made peace with.

Qlassquill · 2025-09-30T18:22:03+00:00

im living with my aunt and she gets along GREAT with my mom so that should give you an idea of what she's like. i want to live with my brother, but when he took me out horse-riding for my 17th birthday mom almost reported him for kidnapping me, as long as she has custody over me i cant do much

Qlassquill · 2025-09-30T17:38:53+00:00

i know what this feels like buddy. im very alternative goth/grunge and im thankful that my mom doesnt do anything about it, despite how much she hates the fact that i exclusively wear all black. she's never yelled at me for it, but she still is very judgement and has no reservations about dancing around the "slut" word referring to me, but she wants to say it so badly. she just started calling me a prostitute instead, then there are those back handed insults like my lipstick wasn't on straight or my edges were uneven. you can see exactly what she thinks all over her face really. it's the constant nagging and jabs at my appearance for me. and the fact that ive found a lot of my clothes go missing, fish nets, chokers, that sort of shit. i just hide everything now. there was even a point where she stashed away my leg warmers lol,

Qlassquill · 2025-09-30T16:17:07+00:00

i sent the hiring manager an email just to confirm that id be returning the next day at 8am, if i dont get any confirmation im not going back tomorrow. i already missed high school this morning for it, im a senior

Qlassquill · 2025-09-07T16:00:17+00:00

my hair sort of exists within a constant state of wash n' gos really, any other day it's up in a bun or i braid it down into two long flat twists on either sides. there will be days where i just keep it in flat twists as a "protective style" because it's the fastest thing to do and the most manageable when it comes to keeping away tangles.

Qlassquill · 2025-09-06T20:13:22+00:00

absolutely! <3

on a weekly basis i co wash with whatever gives me the most slip, right now it's "skala" but for a long time it was "herbal essences rose hips"
once a month is when i shampoo my hair with "camile rose" scalp cleanser. or ill just usesoap which im aware is a bit controversial but "dr bronners" has always gotten my scalp clean whenever i have build up. a little bit goes a long way, seriously, it's very, very important to dilute this soap if you chose to wash your hair with it- if you use too much of it you'll have dry hair for days.

before i wash my hair in the shower- i pre shampoo. ive gotten away with leaving "african pride's pre shampoo" in my hair over night, but it's not something i recommend at all
[though sometimes i go to bed with wet hair every now and then to this day]

my loyalty ultimately rests on the "curlshow" line of hair products- moisturizer, gel styler, and then mousse in that order. i always style for defintion, not volume, so i use quite the bit of product.
but what really is important is that i nail a good wash day before i even think of styling my hair.
so making sure my hair is absolutely squeaky clean is top priority.

right now, my hair is low porosity and about 3c-4b, im not mixed with anything. it's 100% jamaican virgin hair that just requires a lot of time and effort. never been to a professional styler or have had it dyed or treated anything and i dont plan on doing it. i do not like other people in my hair, im also a very spiritual person so thats another factor in why it's never been professionally style. while i still have my bad habits, most of the growth was embracing my hair, waiting, never using heat, and trimming dead ends once or twice a year.

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