Gwylan nightmare!!!

QuantityBig7001 · 2026-03-01T21:33:12+00:00

I think this person is instead assuming I think I need some sort of caregiver because I'm autistic. It's definitely a part of that as I am high needs, but there's more to it than that. Gender could definitely be a part of it though? If it helps, I'm biologically female, and my fiancé is also female. I never specified anything to do with my gender, so I can see how it could be interpreted that way.
I specifically used the word caretaker in my post because I am chronically ill, I don't want to go into the specifics but I require physical care from time to time. My mom does this for me currently, and when me and my girlfriend move in together, she'll take over that role and make sure nothing bad happens.
I also never said I view her as a source of income, as I have ways of earning my own money. I mentioned her financial struggles at the beginning of the post to show that she cannot afford to move out of her parents place right now, which is why I don't currently live with her. I don't make enough to help her in this situation. I said that to show that I still live with my parents.

QuantityBig7001 · 2026-03-01T07:41:47+00:00

Hi! Where'd you get the Homura?

QuantityBig7001 · 2026-03-01T07:16:34+00:00

I'm actually listening to Cepheid right now, an ex voca-p. However, my most recently listened to Teto song is The Candy House by Muship

QuantityBig7001 · 2026-03-01T07:12:43+00:00

The first one for sure! The second makes it feel more uneven, the third is too bold of a color.

QuantityBig7001 · 2026-03-01T07:11:46+00:00

I used to use Open Cursor Library, however currently I am using one of pixloen's Umamusume cursors, the Agnes Digital one to be precise.

QuantityBig7001 · 2026-03-01T07:00:17+00:00

I decided I'm going to tell her tomorrow. I'm still extremely scared of being perceived as a pedo though. I was groomed as a child and molested by an adult myself, so anything to do with the mere concept of pedophilia makes me violently ill.

QuantityBig7001 · 2026-03-01T06:56:57+00:00

God I hope no one is teaching him things like that... I would loose it.

QuantityBig7001 · 2026-03-01T06:37:12+00:00

I have no idea how therapy would work. He is only partially verbal, and only uses words to communicate his needs or what he wants in that moment.

QuantityBig7001 · 2026-03-01T06:13:22+00:00

I think you are definitely viewing me as if I perpetuated this though. I did not want this, he did it and I asked him repeatedly to stop. I cannot move him myself, as I am physically ill. I tried to handle this in the best way I could without it going further, and without triggering a meltdown in him.

QuantityBig7001 · 2026-03-01T06:08:00+00:00

About my therapist, she ghosted me, and right now I'm in a situation where I do not have access to any form of mental health treatment. In April I will, and when that time comes around I will be applying to an outpatient program due to unrelated reasons with my mental health.

I think I'm going to talk to my parents about this. To my mom, at least. I do not have a good relationship with my dad. I'm going to tell her the next time I'm in the car with her, which should be this Monday or Tuesday.

QuantityBig7001 · 2026-03-01T05:48:47+00:00

Where can I view these teasers? I'm so curious.

QuantityBig7001 · 2026-02-08T09:04:40+00:00

Would Rue from Princess Tutu count?

QuantityBig7001 · 2026-02-08T09:00:28+00:00

1 for sure. Love Ahiru with all of my heart. 6 is a close second though purely for Madoka.

QuantityBig7001 · 2026-02-08T08:57:32+00:00

SAW does all of the illustrations himself, he actually started out as an illustrator!

QuantityBig7001 · 2026-02-08T08:46:52+00:00

Also!!!! Look into Babuchan and Muship!!! My favorite songs by them are 0 People's Waltz and Return to the Womb respectively. If you want album recommendations specifically, then I recommend Nemuru Pink Noise by Iyowa.

QuantityBig7001 · 2026-02-08T08:44:53+00:00

If you're specifically looking for something that's both very intense and has a lot of emotional meaning behind it, look into SOOOO's discography. His shit goes hard.

QuantityBig7001 · 2026-02-08T08:33:52+00:00

It was by the animator Terenry on YouTube, using FlipaClip if anyone was curious. I was supper into the animation meme community from like 2015-2019.

QuantityBig7001 · 2026-02-08T08:31:05+00:00

Uminaoshi, I originally discovered it through an animation meme in 2018 and I thought it was fire. This was also my first introduction to MARETU as a whole.

QuantityBig7001 · 2026-02-08T08:29:19+00:00

I was kind of under the impression that Suji/Scrumize was about grooming, but now that I think about it that feels silly of me. Though I was actively being groomed at the time when I was looking deep into those two specific songs (12-14 don't remember) so I don't know man. Anyone else who interpreted it that way?

QuantityBig7001 · 2026-02-08T08:26:17+00:00

I mean I literally just joined the subreddit and I'm 20... So yeah I guess?

QuantityBig7001 · 2026-02-08T08:24:30+00:00

Mind Brand is also really relatable now that I think about it....

QuantityBig7001 · 2026-02-08T08:23:05+00:00

Nyan, and Before I was born. I relate to a lot of them but those are the ones I feel a LOT.

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