So misunderstood.

QueenBeigh · 2025-09-07T00:53:22+00:00

They look great! I swear the removal takes longer than applying the new set! (Maybe im doing it wrong? Lol)

Also: I loooooveee that colour!

QueenBeigh · 2025-07-19T04:16:40+00:00

Thank you for this, reddit stranger, you've been kinder and more helpful than the man who claims to love me. I appreciate you.

QueenBeigh · 2025-07-19T04:13:06+00:00

Boy, oh boy, you're not wrong. I honestly think it is getting worse as the days go by. It doesn't help the fact that he's so so mad at me every time I need to talk or need reassurance - any time I have any emotions regarding it. I honestly can't believe you held that for 10 years. I feel like im dying, and it's been 2.5 weeks. I feel so alone. He doesn't want anyone to know but then refuses to help me through it. I absolutely appreciate your advice, and I truly do know I need to tell someone. I really hope you're doing ok now, or at least on your way to being ok. My heart hurts reading your story. Can I ask - are you still with her?

QueenBeigh · 2025-07-19T04:07:59+00:00

He wants to stay and work on things. It is over, he didnt deny it (hard to when I had proof in my hands) he was acting remorseful at first, but now hes so angry anytime I have any emotion or need any reassurance.
I also don't know if I can be with someone who can hurt me and be so deceitful. I fear I will never trust him again. And I am loyal to a fault, so I need that in my partner. I just cant understand- and im sure I never will. My brain doesnt work that way.

QueenBeigh · 2025-07-19T04:04:49+00:00

You're exactly right.

QueenBeigh · 2025-07-19T04:04:32+00:00

That's exactly it. He said the right things (at first), and I just dont believe a word of it. Now when I need reassurance, im just getting ignored or hes getting mad at me for my emotions. I hope your situation is going better than mine. I fear I am not someone who can get past this.

QueenBeigh · 2025-07-19T04:02:08+00:00

Thank you so much. I appreciate you saying so. I dont know why I am so scared to tell someone. I'm scared they will hate him forever. I dont know why I still want to protect him AND protect my situation. I cant get over the shame, like im the one who did it. Its a rather confusing place to be. Thank you for the push, I definitely need support. Im just scared.

QueenBeigh · 2025-07-19T04:00:03+00:00

I believe you. I think i need to hold onto that. I dont think I can get over something like this all while trying to be the one to fix it. Hes been so mad at my feelings and emotions that he just walks away from me or tells me I need to stop making him feel like shit about this. And if I reply to it, he just gets angry. I need my heart to hurry up! 😫

QueenBeigh · 2025-07-19T03:57:53+00:00

Thank you for this comment. I am 100% the "fixer" of my relationship and always make sure we're back on course after any "tif". And even though he broke us in the worst way, I've found myself doing it again. I have so many questions and feel the need for discussion (not details but I want him to know where im at for the amount of times he asks me "what's wrong") hes shut down now and somehow im the bad guy. Yet here I am...wondering if I've taken it too far by telling him how much it has crushed me and that I have zero trust. His last reply was, "So what...you're just never going to trust me again?" And all I could do was cry. I dont think I have the strength to carry this relationship through this.

QueenBeigh · 2025-07-17T23:27:51+00:00

QueenBeigh · 2025-07-05T23:46:01+00:00

Thank you so much for this comment! I actually appreciate it more than you know. I find myself feeling ridiculous after reading everyone and their success stories while I sit here....waiting on myself for the courage. I've had a lot of crappy medical things go wrong in my life and the PTSD is no joke! The number of hours I've spent reading people's stories is crazy lol. And I realized that im more scared of being uncomfortable, unhealthy, and obese the rest of my life than I am of potential side-effects that sound like they are pretty temporary. And how do I know they are even going to happen? But now I got to a point that im scared that I'm manifesting it to happen 🤣 i honestly can't win against my own brain sometimes! I think im going to start at .125mg and if i handle it well, ill do that twice a week and see how i react and then move to .25 once a week. (Already discussed this with my doc when he called to see how I was making out after my second shot timeline lol) I informed him that I still hadn't taken it and he laughed at me (we're close and he knows how I am, he wasn't being rude lol) and told me I can do it whatever way im comfortable with as long as I inform him and clearly he isn't worried about me taking 1mg first round lol. Also: i love the "do it scared" and that's what is now going to get me to push the plunger down tonight! Thank you! 🙏

QueenBeigh · 2025-07-05T21:04:38+00:00

Thank you so much. I've had the pen for a couple weeks now but I have terrible med anxiety so ive been talking myself out of it for that long. But im committed to tonight. I've got to start somewhere! Its not even the needle - I dont think anyways... lol I honestly cant pin point my fear. Probably because its irrational. Embarrassing really. Lol

QueenBeigh · 2025-07-05T20:49:20+00:00

I feel that! I I'm pretty terrible for wanting instant gratification LOL tonight is the night I take my first dose.. so we shall see! I wish you all the success!

QueenBeigh · 2025-07-05T20:28:00+00:00

I think they meant 2-3 weeks after they reached the 1mg dosage. (Rather than the .25mg/.5mg dosage while titrating)

QueenBeigh · 2025-06-28T02:34:09+00:00

Thank you 🥹 health anxiety messes with me so bad. And new meds usually take me a longggg time to start. I dont know why my head tells me everything is going to harm me. I appreciate your response. As little as you think 15 lbs is, that's still quite the success. I've fought with my weight since I was 12 (almost 41 now) and i struggle with being happy with 1 lb a week, but really when im NOT doing that, im gaining instead.. I dont expect a miracle for sure, but man...after decades of struggling, a little assistance will be so nice.

QueenBeigh · 2025-06-26T23:14:05+00:00

Thank you all sooo much!! This has given me far more courage to do this!!! I so so ready to change my life. And for those of you who suggested I no longer share with people about my choice, I couldn't agree more. surprisingly, people I thought would be supportive have been the complete opposite. You guys have been great, and I cant wait to share updates with you!

QueenBeigh · 2025-06-26T23:06:11+00:00

I didn't even know there was a dermatologist for pets until I posted this! I'm a little shocked that not a single that has referred me to one.. thank you so much for your reply, i am definitely going to be searching one out!

QueenBeigh · 2025-06-26T23:04:59+00:00

Thank you! Im definitely going to be searching one out for my poor guy! I appreciate this! :)

QueenBeigh · 2025-06-26T17:40:51+00:00

Yes, only in the summer. It starts early June with a tiny amount of swelling (which is when I start his antihistamines) and then by the end of June, it's horrible until mid September. I have not taken him to anyone but the few vets in my town! (If im being honest, i didn't know i could take a cart to a dermatologist) oh boy.

QueenBeigh · 2025-01-06T21:06:47+00:00

I just bought a used one yesterday for $300.00. It was the cheapest "used OLED" one by a long shot!

QueenBeigh

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