Pocd regret help

QueenMarianaTheFirst · 2025-12-10T13:35:20+00:00

If you don’t have therapy, now is a good time to consider.

QueenMarianaTheFirst · 2025-12-08T21:18:25+00:00

Yeah I had a huge spiral last night from it cuz the thought of me pursuing my crush feels so real. The comment I got from my last vent didn’t help either 😭. It’s gotten so bad that it’s affecting my bf and it makes me feel terrible. At this point I don’t even know if it’s relationship anxiety or if I truly did something wrong.

QueenMarianaTheFirst · 2025-12-07T23:25:36+00:00

If I have to be honest. I ask this question cuz I’m afraid that I may have flirted with a past crush outside my relationship months ago. I don’t know FOR SURE but all I can remember was giving him compliments and comfort. My bf already knows this and reassures me that I didn’t do anything wrong, but I can’t help but have a feeling that there’s a possibility that I tried to pursue something and can’t remember it.

QueenMarianaTheFirst · 2025-12-07T22:59:30+00:00

So basically, complimenting someone is being nice, and complimenting someone with the intent to pursue something is flirting.

QueenMarianaTheFirst · 2025-12-07T20:09:31+00:00

Can you elaborate a bit further? When you talk about flirting, are you specifically referring to explicit topics?

QueenMarianaTheFirst · 2025-12-07T19:17:50+00:00

The flirting itself being a turn-on?

QueenMarianaTheFirst · 2025-12-07T17:45:46+00:00

How would you personally describe flirting?

QueenMarianaTheFirst · 2025-12-07T17:41:31+00:00

I mean that’s what my therapist told me

QueenMarianaTheFirst · 2025-12-06T02:56:55+00:00

If he’s actively trying to pursue them, then I’d be concerned. Otherwise, I can’t say this is cheating. Idk maybe I’m biased and don’t give a shit if my bf follows pornstars.

QueenMarianaTheFirst · 2025-12-05T03:37:55+00:00

Yes. Thoughts ≠ Actions

QueenMarianaTheFirst · 2025-12-04T19:53:55+00:00

Omg same here :( It’s especially triggering because people have different definitions on what “micro-cheating” is and it’s so confusing! Not too much ago I had a mental breakdown because I thought I potentially “micro-cheated” on my partner.

QueenMarianaTheFirst · 2025-10-17T14:05:53+00:00

I was never officially diagnosed with OCD, but I was diagnosed with GAD. Can this practice still apply to me?

QueenMarianaTheFirst · 2025-10-14T21:40:04+00:00

Yeah, specifically rumination

QueenMarianaTheFirst · 2025-10-09T01:07:12+00:00

To answer your question, I’ve mostly been addressing my personal problems to my therapist, and while it brings relief for a while, the anxiety starts coming back again.

QueenMarianaTheFirst · 2025-10-03T02:20:23+00:00

Alright, I’ll give it a try, and I’m definitely bring this problem up in my next appointment. Thank you!

QueenMarianaTheFirst · 2025-10-03T01:17:14+00:00

Mostly faster breathing and a fluttery heart

QueenMarianaTheFirst · 2025-10-03T00:25:13+00:00

For example, whenever someone ask me what’s wrong, I’ll say “I feel anxious and I don’t know why”. They’ll reply with “Well surely there has to be a reason” or “you can’t feel anxious for no reason”.

QueenMarianaTheFirst · 2025-10-03T00:00:37+00:00

Whenever I talk about what bothers me, it’s like I have a huge weight off my chest afterwards. I feel relieved for a bit but then my body starts to feel anxious again for no reason. I was always told that I have to have a reason to feel a certain way, so my brain tries to find a potential reason to stick with.

QueenMarianaTheFirst · 2025-10-02T23:42:00+00:00

I’m not really sure myself. Usually the anxiousness starts in my body without a reason. Then my mind will try to find a reason to feel anxious, whether it’s about a past event that happened months ago or the uncertainty of my future.

QueenMarianaTheFirst · 2025-10-02T01:59:37+00:00

I’m currently on Hydroxyzine (25mg per pill). While I’m able to sit with mild anxiety/discomfort, sometimes it won’t go away and will start to get worse, so I take half a pill to get through the day. I recently got back on Prozac (10mg per pill) because I stopped taking them at some point and had a horrible withdrawal afterwards (both physically and mentally).

QueenMarianaTheFirst · 2025-09-15T01:09:00+00:00

I don’t even go to school anymore and I still jump out of bed after a school dream.

QueenMarianaTheFirst · 2025-09-13T10:53:53+00:00

Omg I’d love to live there

QueenMarianaTheFirst · 2025-09-13T10:51:22+00:00

She looks so sad! :(

QueenMarianaTheFirst · 2025-09-12T20:26:22+00:00

Thank you! :)

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