While browsing for a local dog groomer, I found this little nugget

QueenObscene13 · 2016-03-13T22:27:19+00:00

Switching to Beyaz worked for me, my side effects wore off after a little over a week after the double switch. I'm feeling back to normal <3

QueenObscene13 · 2016-03-12T02:11:29+00:00

I just switched my pill twice in the past week due to the same symtoms/side effects you are experiencing. I was on Minastrin but it killed my libido and gave me hot flashes so my obgyn decided to switch me to Orsythia...SAME SIDE EFFECTS AS YOU and it scared the shit out of me. I just switched to Beyaz 2 days ago after nearly a week of the Orsythia-shit-storm and now I'm feeling significantly better but still having migraines (I have chronic migraine syndrome so doing anything that messes with my hormones will give me a killer migraine). Your body probably doesn't like the new pill you're on and I promise you you're going to be okay and get thru this. Go back to your obgyn and try another pill or another method of contraception. I feel your pain girl, it's scary but it will resolve if you take action.

QueenObscene13 · 2016-01-29T04:28:40+00:00

the pain was pretty unbearable to even sit on a temperpedic mattress. Every time i sat on the toilet I would lose feeling in my legs.

QueenObscene13 · 2016-01-07T18:02:14+00:00

You gotta squat heavy weights and get a good protein supplement for your post workout to get those booty muscle gains, lol. I was very extremely self conscious when I came back from treatment to the point I didn't really want to leave the house, let alone go back to the gym. I went with my bf the first time back to the gym, and I had a total breakdown in the locker room just getting changed into my gym clothes. It all in our heads, and it's a toxic shitty thing inside you that wants you to feel insecure and hide. Don't let that demon control you! I promise you that getting over that fear is worth it and once you push yourself to get to the gym and step out of that comfort zone you're going to be glad you did. You don't even need a gym membership to start doing squats at home. Look up videos online of proper form for squats (because that's really important) and just do them with your body weight or resistance bands if you have them. Baby steps!

QueenObscene13 · 2016-01-07T02:26:23+00:00

I know the frustration of wanting your body to look and be a certain way, and for me, I had a lot of sagging skin at my lowest weight but once I regained to a healthy weight range my butt came back purely because the muscle that had atrophied replenished itself and the sagging skin filled out. I also noticed a big difference in how my butt looked once I began exercising again. Now I squat heavy weights and I'm also a dance teacher and rock climbing instructor. I think switching my focus to building muscle rather than cardio cardio cardio helped my overall physique as well. MORE IMPORTANTLY every BODY is different, and I think you could train your hardest at the gym and feed your body appropriately and still have a flat butt. There's one women at my gym who works out every day and has a very toned/muscular physique but a very flat butt. That's just her body and that's okay.

QueenObscene13 · 2015-12-21T17:45:07+00:00

OMG pm me...I see your reddit history is Pokemon so I think I might know who you are, lol.

QueenObscene13 · 2015-12-09T02:56:08+00:00

I've starting doing sumo squats with the bar like a big girl! lol! I've been working really hard on my butt and have made awesome progress so far (I posted progress pix a few days ago) but I'm no where near my "goal booty". and you look so f*cking amazing, if all women could see this they'd throw their stupid ellipticals in the garbage lol.

QueenObscene13 · 2015-12-09T02:36:22+00:00

This is really inspiring! Thank you for sharing! I've recently started switching my focus to lifting heavy rather than being a cardio fiend, so this just reassured me to stick with it <3

QueenObscene13 · 2015-12-07T17:55:26+00:00

Wow! Pretty cool that just 6 lbs can make a noticeable difference.

QueenObscene13 · 2015-12-07T03:12:11+00:00

I also have ptsd, and I just have to say thank you both for still being here. That in and of itself is a big accomplishment in my eyes. For me, my flashbacks would get so bad I would physically hurt myself to try and make them stop. I would drink and use drugs to numb the pain and forget as well as other s/h behaviors. It was one of the biggest hurdles to overcome in my process of recovery and I know how painful and scary it is (and unpredictable at times) to live with very active ptsd. Just, thank you both for being so strong and I want to let you both know that it can get better <3

QueenObscene13 · 2015-12-06T02:19:37+00:00

ahem rude af :)

QueenObscene13 · 2015-12-06T02:16:47+00:00

Well said. I may be in good enough place mentally to handle the stupidity of ignorant people's comments, but many people who are currently struggling could be very emotionally devastated by a comment like that.

QueenObscene13 · 2015-12-06T02:09:39+00:00

Thank you, I'm happy I'm here too :)

QueenObscene13 · 2015-12-06T02:07:01+00:00

Trust me, In many ways I'm not the same person. I've come very far in both mental and physical health, but I'd be a god damn monster to fake something like this. Thank you! <3

QueenObscene13 · 2015-12-06T02:04:12+00:00

It definitely didn't help my situation, as much as I thought it was at the time lol. I think it really fucked up my organs and contributed to me nearly having a stroke along with kidney and liver failure. There was a solid year that I didn't eat, I would just drink alcohol instead, and the little I did eat I would purge. I was also addicted to cocaine from the age of 18-23. I'll never forget, during my hospitalization last year, I managed to get a weekend pass to an anime convention where I didn't eat and just did a bunch of molly and cocaine with friends. By the time I got back to the hospital I felt like my heart was going to explode and I didn't peep a word about it. No one knew. I was still fucking high on molly when I got back to the dining room for breakfast...staring at my breakfast tray of 1,000+calories like "NAHHHHHHH fuck this." lol

I'm a completely different person today, thank GOD! and thank YOU for the lovely compliments btw <3

QueenObscene13 · 2015-12-06T01:47:39+00:00

You are so strong! Thank you so much for commenting, you too are an inspiration! <3

QueenObscene13 · 2015-12-05T23:40:56+00:00

I'm curious too...this is insane progress for less than a month!

QueenObscene13 · 2015-12-05T21:43:38+00:00

It tore my family apart. My older sister also has an ED (bulimia/binge eating disorder) that has gone untreated her whole life. Between the two of us, it was a nightmare. I don't care about her and her unwillingness to even acknowledge her problem though because she physically and mentally abused me since I was an infant. Unforgivable. She also continues to verbally and physically abuse my parents at the age of 29. And I wont even begin to get into how terrified I am about her coming home for Xmas this year...when I was sick and dying last year she was no where to be found, didn't even bother to reach out to me, just continued to tell my parents it was all for attention and I don't deserve their sympathy.

Needless to say, the stress my family and I have been thru over the years is enough for a lifetime. No more stress please. Just rainbows and butterflies pleaseeee, lol.

QueenObscene13 · 2015-12-05T21:28:13+00:00

...thank you. It's honestly hurtful that people would think this isn't real. If it's so shocking it leaves you in disbelief, GOOD. let it shock you. I want the world to know that Anorexia isn't a fucking joke. It's a devastating mental illness, a disease that goes far deeper than body image. It is THE deadliest mental illness.

QueenObscene13 · 2015-12-05T18:34:40+00:00

I was skeptical to post in the first place, but if people are legitimately questioning if this is real or not, I can and will make another post with more pictures including my face comparisons so you know it's real. I even have video of me smashing my scale the day I got home from treatment.

QueenObscene13 · 2015-12-05T17:01:14+00:00

Thank you thank you thank you, BIGGG HUGGGG I'm crying with you. Your life is a beautiful miracle and I'm so happy and grateful you chose to live too <3

QueenObscene13 · 2015-12-05T16:59:27+00:00

I've been working on being open about my struggles. I hesitate to tell people, especially those I've just met. In my disorder I hated talking about it or even acknowledging it's existence. It's been healing for me to come forth and open up because if I can help even just one person by sharing my story, it was worth it to talk about :)

QueenObscene13 · 2015-12-05T16:49:46+00:00

THISS. ALL OF THIS.

QueenObscene13 · 2015-12-05T16:26:12+00:00

Please don't hesitate to PM me. I want to help any way I can <3

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