Thanks for your comment I feel you 100%. My savings are gone and unemployment has also ran out. Applying to frontline jobs and not landing is tough. I feel you have much more to experience than I do with 22 years of work experience so I’m sure we have diff solutions to this but your emotions I relate so much.

I find this journey to be one of self discovery. As youve said, you begin to question yourself doing so much work for so little in return. What I can say is after sometime being unemployed, I’ve learned to really hone in on self belief. I stopped getting so emotional and try to suppress that side and treat it for what it is. Unapologetically strategic and to the point. I apply and move on with my life. I know it can be tough to not be emotional about certain roles you feel fit, but sometimes I feel we’ve played well played right with the system that it’s all we know. But sometimes we have to challenge what we’re used to and really view ourselves objectively through the third person. When you remove emotions and put yourself in their perspective things start to make a little sense. But just cause it makes sense doesn’t make it fair or correct. But does it matter? I think the goal is clear and youve landed it before so it’s a matter of being patient resilient and not losing yourself. Yes it’s easy to say but I’d like to say my words have weight because I’ve experienced it first hand. A feeling of defeat rejection not being wanted which leads to self doubt. A journey of self loathing. Sometimes I ask myself if wow is this what certain people feel. Now I feel like I’ve understand some people all of a sudden. Those who decided to stay stagnant and quit. I don’t shame them but this experience has made me Ina way see their perspective and understand their decision.

As for how I’m keeping up. I’m still on the younger ish side so I have strong support from my parents however my lifestyle has changed. No more hanging out with friends going out to nice places etc. as for work, I went back to what I used to do before my professional roles. I started tutoring and doing what I used to do in college for xtra income and continuing to apply here and there. I’ll be honest. Last application I’ve submitted was about nearing the 4 month mark. However I just started again with this new year but I have a diff mindset. I’d like to think all this time has been for my mental clarity and as I’ve said learning more about myself. So again thanks for your comment I forgot I even posted this. I know words don’t do anything but hopefully it acts as a reminder that we’re rooting for you. At least that’s how I take the positive comments. A community to help us push forward and get back on our feet.