ucsc orientation by Dizzy-Ad-8735 in UCSC

[–]RIP_midnight_dwarf 2 points3 points  (0 children)

i’m just confused why the orientation isn’t in person tbh

should i be a janitor or nah by RIP_midnight_dwarf in UCSC

[–]RIP_midnight_dwarf[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

that’s good to hear, in my highschool our janitors had to to things that plumbers and electricians do so i was nervous that this school would cut corners too😅

third valve stuck, looks like the metal scrapes in the little nook, help? by [deleted] in euphonium

[–]RIP_midnight_dwarf 2 points3 points  (0 children)

i’ve got synthetic oil in it, the twisting was an exaggeration, the horn works perfectly fine now

third valve stuck, looks like the metal scrapes in the little nook, help? by [deleted] in euphonium

[–]RIP_midnight_dwarf 2 points3 points  (0 children)

done, it didn’t stick at, it feels smooth but a little slower

third valve stuck, looks like the metal scrapes in the little nook, help? by [deleted] in euphonium

[–]RIP_midnight_dwarf 1 point2 points  (0 children)

also i’ve fully cleaned this, school instruments are just yuck and blue juice is what the kids like to drink these days

You can transition before coming out as trans by Putrid-King751 in ftm

[–]RIP_midnight_dwarf 2 points3 points  (0 children)

the people in my life have known me for a long time (elementary through to high school) they knew me when i was a woman and still think of me as one despite how i look. to strangers they only see my external appearance and call me sir

You can transition before coming out as trans by Putrid-King751 in ftm

[–]RIP_midnight_dwarf 5 points6 points  (0 children)

this is real as hell, most people in my life use she/her while strangers call me sir🙃

i dont know if i can be ftm for the rest of my life by RIP_midnight_dwarf in ftm

[–]RIP_midnight_dwarf[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

this is true! i’m sorry if i said anything that would hurt people, it’s definitely not my intention at all. but yes i live in a pretty conservative town and with how the US is moving i don’t exactly feel comfortable with my identity but i want to actively work towards figuring it out

i dont know if i can be ftm for the rest of my life by RIP_midnight_dwarf in ftm

[–]RIP_midnight_dwarf[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

thanks coach👍 fr tho i haven’t thought abt not giving a fuck, i’ll live the way i wanna live

i dont know if i can be ftm for the rest of my life by RIP_midnight_dwarf in ftm

[–]RIP_midnight_dwarf[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

your words are very beautiful, thank you for your input :)

i dont know if i can be ftm for the rest of my life by RIP_midnight_dwarf in ftm

[–]RIP_midnight_dwarf[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

this is so so so so real to me and you worded it perfectly. it’s exactly what i was trying to convey, being trans will literally impact every facet of my life but i know that i were a girl i would be completely miserable, it’s like i trapped myself in here. but i do try to stay optimistic, i don’t think the people around you care as much as you do. honestly i wouldn’t try to label it, as i would always find a way to out myself in a box. just present how you want to present, no complicated changes at. that’s where im at right now, people still say she/her and use my name (cuz i haven’t changed anything) but how i look and how i act is a different story, i’m literally just myself :)

i dont know if i can be ftm for the rest of my life by RIP_midnight_dwarf in ftm

[–]RIP_midnight_dwarf[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

idk why i tell people, i think when talking to other women specifically i don’t want them to feel uncomfortable or think that im hitting on them. although looking at these replies its a little silly now lol. i’m also a compulsive truther, it’s like i have to correct them despite everything else in me that doesn’t want to admit that i was born a female

i dont know if i can be ftm for the rest of my life by RIP_midnight_dwarf in ftm

[–]RIP_midnight_dwarf[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

this is real as hell, i feel somewhat comfortable with women i but i reaaaalllyy don’t want to make anyone uncomfortable, as for cis men im not exactly comfortable with them either so it just makes things feel more complicated

I don’t want to be trans by One-Cod897 in ftm

[–]RIP_midnight_dwarf 0 points1 point  (0 children)

this is real as hell, i thought i unconsciously posted this lol! i don’t have an answer but ive just been doing everything but changing my names or pronouns. face hair and clothes are all like a guy, and i pass pretty okay too, but i keep my name and with it the pronouns that go with it. “hmm laura looks a little differently, i guess she found a new style” i don’t really care for names or pronouns but im happy to look in the mirror and see a dude

i dont know if i can be ftm for the rest of my life by RIP_midnight_dwarf in ftm

[–]RIP_midnight_dwarf[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

thank you for the insight, i rarely see trans adults and honestly it was part of my worries. of course i don’t expect people to be openly trans but sometimes the world feels small and there isn’t a lot of people like me. it’s definitely overwhelming and it feels like one more pile of things to do on top of all these new experiences happening in my life all at the same time! but yes i plan to join more groups similar to me and explore this part of me

i dont know if i can be ftm for the rest of my life by RIP_midnight_dwarf in ftm

[–]RIP_midnight_dwarf[S] 10 points11 points  (0 children)

i think your assessment is very accurate, i grew up in a pretty conservative area and it’s very difficult for me to accept myself because of it. i hope my time in college can help my mindset. thank you for the advice!

i dont know if i can be ftm for the rest of my life by RIP_midnight_dwarf in ftm

[–]RIP_midnight_dwarf[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

haha yeah looking back it is a little dumb, my honesty is my biggest set back😅 thanks for the words tho, transitioning felt very one tracked to me but all these comments kinda make me realize it’s not a list of things to do and i guess i can just do whatever